RachelBigby
Confident
I have siblings who I haven't seen in literal decades. Some of them are badly disordered. One of my brothers is schizophrenic; we've had one coherent conversation in the past 20 years. My family is a wasteland of drug abuse, homelessness, gang involvement, partners dead or in prison, etc. These days I'm pretty much in a state of No Contact.
My counselor has me meditating with emotional music for heart work. I was listening to Les Miserables. Empty Chairs at Empty Tables wrecked me. I suddenly starting crying about my siblings. Even now as I type this I can't stop the tears, which is super unusual for me. Guess the emotion therapy is working.
Anyway, my point is, I don't want to belittle Survivor Guilt. Am I feeling a form of that, or is this something else?
Crap. Hubby will leave work soon and I'm sitting here crying. This therapy kills my vibe! Hope I'm not awake half the night.
My counselor has me meditating with emotional music for heart work. I was listening to Les Miserables. Empty Chairs at Empty Tables wrecked me. I suddenly starting crying about my siblings. Even now as I type this I can't stop the tears, which is super unusual for me. Guess the emotion therapy is working.
Anyway, my point is, I don't want to belittle Survivor Guilt. Am I feeling a form of that, or is this something else?
Crap. Hubby will leave work soon and I'm sitting here crying. This therapy kills my vibe! Hope I'm not awake half the night.