Switching Parts-dizzy? Structured Dissociation

[Alphabetzy]

If you have structural disociation with Apparently Normal Part(s) and Emotional Parts, can you "feel" when your switching? Does it have obvious signs? Sometimes I dissociative worse than others and the room is constantly spinning. It feels like there's G-force pushing against me. Lots of visual changes. My senses get crossed like I can hear colors and lights and see sounds...and intense nausea like a migraine headache. Does that ever happen to anyone else?

 

[pixel]

Yes, i feel some switches. it feels like going under anaesthetic, being drawn inwards, like that moment you have seconds before you fall asleep.

I also have the g-force dizziness — you ever go on the Gravitron ride at a fair/show? The flying saucer ride that spins so fast you stick to the walls as the floor drops away. feels like that, hey — it flattens me, i drop and am immobile. pain like an elephant is standing on your head and sound is unintelligible.
i personally describe this as dissociation.
it is always triggered by a heavy duty stress

 

[Alphabetzy]

Yes, i feel some switches. it feels like going under anaesthetic, being drawn inwards, like that moment y...

Yesss! Just like a graviton! That's so funny you mentioned it because I had literally typed it out then deleted it because I didn't know if anyone would get it. Lol.

 

[theshadowoftheliving]

I get so dizzy before and after parts come out. It does feel like that whirlwind spinning of an amusement park ride, combined with a sharp, stabbing headache and that white-hot pain in my gut that signals being ready to vomit.

This is when I notice it coming. I don't always notice it, though, until later.

 

[shimmerz]

Yes, dizzy and like I am going to drop into sleep - like immediately.

Prior to that feeling, before I knew what was happening to me, I also noticed that I rubbed my eyes. That was a switch between my oh so very injured part and my 'mother part'. Every time a kid would call I would rub my eyes incessantly to try to keep myself 'in mother part'.

Also, I notice different parts show themselves physically in different ways. One of my parts (whether dizzy or not) turns her feet inwards and walks. Another part hunches over as if to go into fetal, even when walking.

 

[sun seeker]

Hmm. Not really. At least not as obviously as people are describing. Now I wonder why that is.

 

[Alphabetzy]

Yes, dizzy and like I am going to drop into sleep - like immediately.

Prior to that feeling, before...

I try to stay in mother part too...
I just found out about structural dissociation a few days ago
I don't know what my parts are...should I?
I think there's probably a little girl and teenage party goblin at least.

 

[shimmerz]

I don't know what my parts are...should I?

I don't actively identify with my parts. They don't have names really, although I have changed my name several times in my life so probably they were parts.

For myself, the parts theory helped me tremendously (after the initial shock). I recognized that they didn't define me completely, that they came forward because something in my environment was activating them. And I worked hard to identify what a part was trying to tell me it was reacting to. I watched my body as they appeared as that was a big indicator to me that there was something going on.

It also made it much easier for me to manage my reactions. That my reactions didn't define 'all of me'. It helped me to understand why my reactions were so random. One minute I am fine and the next I am scrambling out the door looking for a place to hide outside. Wow. Those were the days.

I think being aware of parts is helpful. It doesn't seem so 'big' when I recognize I am working with a traumatized portion of myself..... and I started to recognize a pattern. That was helpful.

 

[pixel]

I don't know what my parts are...should I?

Your therapist can help with you with this. I mean the 'should i know about my parts' question.

We're all different hey.
I find it useful switching ANP's.

There are parts I don't know about. Recently I met someone for the first (?) time and he called me — shall we say — mips. I insisted my name is pixel and he looks confused, finally asks if i have a sister called mips. :shifty: been called that name before. *sigh* :sour:

Should i learn more about this part? I don't care to. At the moment I am not getting into any trouble. why rock the boat. (although a few weeks ago i got randomly complimented about some graffiti/street art i did. me?! :nailbiting: im still drawing stick figures... what the hell did i do!)

 

[Ronin]

can you "feel" when your switching? Does it have obvious signs?

Yes & yes. Both self-reported and reported by others.

But a huge dizzyfying thing, no. That'd be something else going on for me, beyond D.I.D. anything, to produce that.

 

[Ronin]

I just found out about structural dissociation a few days ago

I wouldn't over think it.

Not everyone who was traumatized / compartmentalized trauma / compartmentalized parts of their lives without even being traumatic, has something to the degree of structural dissociation going on, secondary or tertiary. Just because you were a different person while a teen and are a different person now, does not necessarily imply 'parts'. It's very normal evolution & a part of growing up.

 

[Alphabetzy]

I wouldn't over think it.

Not everyone who was traumatized / compartmentalized trauma / compartmentalized...

I'm not sure what to make of your comment as a moderator. That certainly wasn't the advice of my therapist. I can hear the condescending tone in your post. I can not believe your arrogance. This was not a self-diagnosis and you shouldn't feel so comfortable sauntering around un-diagnosing people, Sheriff. I'm pretty disgusted. Thanks for mansplaining, Moderator, this site must be such a great tool if your representative of the leadership here.