Sydney Has No Heart.

[Gemima]

I like talking to Americans. They're more compassionate. Australia freaks me out. It is so dry.

 

[Flyaway]

Oh WOW! I have been saying that about West Australians for a long time! They are just so mean spirited! I love Americans. You're right, they are kind, friendly, and have compassion.

 

[ms spock]

There are lots of nice Australians on this site. I hope you get to meet and chat with a few of them.

 

[Gemima]

I didn't want to come back home. My family is very mean to me. I felt unconditional love for the first time in America. I felt appreciated just for being me. I was a performer. Now I'm too afraid of the limelight. It brings on my PTSD. I try to reach out here in the same way that I reached out in America and I get humiliated and told to get back in my box. I've been back for seven years and I came home the Prodigal daughter because I got engaged to a Psychopath to try to get away from my family and it didn't work....well of course it didn't.... he was a psychopath. I received so much shame when I returned... endless shaming shaming shaming....to this day....my sisters use me as a shadow and a toilet for their rage...my family is sick and once upon a time I thought I could heal them but I can't even heal myself. I'm dying on the inside every day.

 

[Gemima]

I have a few nice friends in Sydney but they are in the minority. The way my family sees me infects the way the world sees me...the way I see myself. I lived in New York and it's a much softer city than this. I didn't feel ashamed about being an artist. I didn't feel ashamed about not being married...not having children...not having a partner...shame is my daily bread here.

 

[Gemima]

I used to have a very strong vibration.... I could rise above and give out love and touch the sky with it! now I am endlessly misinterpreted...my vibration is a dodgy heartbeat... a nervous streak. I am nothing... a piece of shit under the shoe of my sister to kick when she feels down or triggered. She has her own shit going on and I've felt an empathy for her which is why I tolerated her abuse.... but it has become sadistic. She used to just be miserable... now she's mean. Meanness runs through a vein in our family tree. It sucks the blood from my bones and the hope from my heart. I despair now.

 

[anthony]

This is not a chit chat area or for PTSD discussion, it is to find a friend. Please start a thread in the more appropriate area to detail your abuse and discuss it.

 

[Gemima]

How do I delete my posts off here?

 

[ms spock]

You need to ask questions in the Help Desk part of the forum Gemima.

[DLMURL]https://www.myptsd.com/c/forums/help-desk.28/[/DLMURL]

 

[Gemima]

I want to get off here. I don't feel safe here. I just got this note from Anthony and then another one behind the scenes from him
again copying and pasting this. WHAT A BULLY! who cares whether people spell properly. What is english is their second language.
This is totally ridiculous to get a grammer note on a PTSD site. FROM TWO PEOPLE. tony and amethyst.

Hi Gemima,

This is a system default message explaining the requirement for the use of "basic grammar" within all posted content.

"Basic Grammar" is defined as:
Starting a sentence with a capital letter.
Ending a sentence with a full stop.
Breaking your content into sentences.
Breaking your content into paragraphs, a clear line between them.
Using basic punctuation if you abbreviate words, ie. I am (I'm), Do Not (Don't), etc.
Capitalizing the letter "i" when written by itself (used as a word) or in an abbreviation, ie. I'm, I can write this. Not, i'm or i can write this.
Not bringing SMS speak to forum discussion.
You may think this is pedantic, however; a traumatic brain cannot always read substantial text at once, nor easily read text that doesn't use basic grammar.

Most current web browsers have spell check and grammar built within it. Lookup your browser help for how to activate spell check and grammar when writing within text fields.

An alternative method is to use a program such as Microsoft Word, or equivalent, which will correct spelling and grammar on your behalf, then copy and paste into the forum editor.

SMS language is not English, nor considered grammatically correct. Basic, well-known abbreviations are acceptable, ie. LOL, IMHO, IMO, etc. The rest will be deleted.

The posted content that prompted this notification was: Do I Belong On This Forum?. Please read the grey 'edited by' notice at the footer of the post to understand the reason. Staff issue a warning first, then edit the post, so please give them time to correct the issue before asking further questions.

Accumulating notifications may cause your account to enter a temporary restrictive state, removing your ability to participate.

Staff has corrected the content. Your only recommended action is to learn and implement basic spell check and grammar within your posted content.

If you have questions about this notification or procedure to implement basic grammar within posting, you can ask them within the help desk forum.

Regards,

PTSD Forum Staff

 

[Gemima]

the help desk won't help me do anything much but correct my grammer and tell me i'm in the wrong room. Who needs the shit!

 

[Gemima]

What a prick that Anthony is. they don't call him arsewit for nothing. this is the WORST PLACE FOR PEOPLE WITH PTSD.