Tears And Relationships

[ashdawn8287]

Tonight I had a really bad feeling flashback. I was taking a bath and all these things from kindergarten starting popping up in my head. It was pure randomness. I feel like I am missing a piece of the puzzle and theirs a big blank. I started crying.

After I got out of the bath I threw up. I went and made some hot green tea and then sat down on the couch next to my fiancee. It was hard opening up to him, but I did. I told him I had a weird flashback and started crying. He pulled me close and held me while I cried.

I found myself apologizing after. I feel bad and like a burden almost. I told him I know he doesn't understand and I promised him I would come to peace with it and not to worry about me. All I needed was that hug.

I have noticed I have been a lot more affectionate and willing to show him affection. I have been hugging him non stop and playfully kissing him.

I'm just scared he thinks I am crazy for crying like that.

 

[therapybankrupt]

Its nice to know you have some one to love. Some one to hold you when the going gets tough. Hang on to that!

 

[ashdawn8287]

Thank you I will. I just don't want to stress him out or make him worry. I'm working on finding that healthy balance in our relationship.

 

[Jinx2you]

I'm glad you have someone who cares about you and listens to you when you are going through this. It sounds like he truly loves you.