Undiagnosed Teen Girl Suffering From Ptsd, Possible Bipolar, And Paranoia

[XXbabydollXX]

Hi I'm 16 years old and I live in the usa. I was sexually abused by my father when I was 5 or 6 years old. My parents are divorced and I suffer from un diagnosed mental illness. I believe I have ocd because I cant go an hour with having compulsions. For example if I go up stairs and it's dark I need to rub my hand against the wall exactly 10 times or I will have extreme anxiety and think some thing bad will happen. I am paranoid that all men are bad and are going to abuse me or try to hurt me or I sometimes believe that someone is following me. I believe that I might have Bipolar 2 disorder because I have periods of deep depression that are more often then my hypo manic stages. My hypomania typically lasts less than a week or sometimes 2 weeks. I tend to feel extremely agitated and angry, feel jumpy and on edge, my thoughts race through my head, and I do Strange hinges that I wouldn't typically do like once I left school and walked around town looking for drugs in my local store to get high off of. Sounds crazy right? For fun I like to sing, draw, swim, and help others. I joined this forum to get help and talk to others who are suffering like me. I would love to talk to you guys.

 

[WillyKat]

You're welcome to talk to us on the forum all you want. We're here to support each other. But we're not able to diagnose or to give you proper mental health counseling, so I urge you to get some professional treatment. In your case, your school should be able to point you toward some resources you can take advantage of.

You sound extremely intelligent, but I would caution against self-diagnosis. Maybe its OCD, maybe PTSD, maybe neither. There is a great deal of overlap between a lot of disorders and there is even greater variation between individuals.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum! :)

Do you have a trusted adult you can talk to? Is seeking out therapy an option for you?

:hug:

 

[Deleted member 28403]

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[XXbabydollXX]

Welcome to the discussions :hug: I trust this place helps you. It's extremely helpful in light of the m...

Thanks hugs back:D

 

[joeylittle]

Hi, @BlkBabydollxx - and welcome.

Like @WillyKat said - we can't really diagnose you, and self-diagnosis doesn't work, and sometimes ends up screwing up your actual diagnosis. But it sounds like the most beneficial thing would be to get into therapy. Is that an option for you? I'm assuming you don't live with your abuser (dad) anymore, since the divorce...are you still in contact with him, and was it ever reported? (Sorry for all the questions - just wanting to be helpful).

 

[XXbabydollXX]

Hi, @BlkBabydollxx - and welcome.

Like @WillyKat said - we c...

I only see him occasionally with my siblings on the weekends. It was reported bu they said that it wasn't enough evidence to charge him.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

@BlkBabydollxx. Have you ever been in treatment, bbdoll? It does sound like you would benefit from a diagnosis.

I'm sorry that you were so horribly betrayed by your father. :(

 

[Canotia]

I understand you. I use to do a lot of what you describe. I had forgotten about the compulsions (touching things) I had as a teen until you just reminded me. I was also abused by my dad. I do remember feeling like something was wrong with me and I needed help. I never got it at your age and waiting until I was 42 was a mistake. My suggestion is to chat online with RAINN. They can help you find resources in your area Most States allow you to go to a youth counseling service a few times before they contact a parent. This way you have a few sessions to come up with a plan and can get help implementing it. You don't sound crazy to me, just having a difficult time. I don't want you to be revictimized as I was. Feel free to PM me if you need additional help or even validation. I promise you, ignoring it doesn't make it go away, it gets worse with age. I wish I had someone tell me this at your age.

 

[Deleted member 37868]

Hi I'm 16 years old and I live in the usa. I was sexually abused by my father when I was 5 or 6 y...

Hey,
Welcome I joined recently too. I'm here, I'm good at listening if you ever want to talk. I'm so sry you had to go through that and send you love and recovery vibes virtually