Telling The Story And Never Feeling A Thing!

[DJ!]

I have a therapist and she is very nice. I am able to talk about most my trauma. I tell my story as if it happened to someone else. I am so far removed from it that I am completely numb. She asks me to feel for the child. I don't. It is too big. I can feel the panic set in when I even think to try and connect. I don't know if I will ever be ready.

 

[ladee]

I started my healing journey the same way. Just like it was a story about someone else. So I really understand.

If you are not ready for the child work..tell your T.
You are doing the best you can and that is good enough.
This healing journey is a process.
You are sharing and that is a great thing.
You will do things in thier own time.
I understand.

 

[NightSky]

I bet there would be more people to talk with you about this on the therapy forum. What you're experiencing is totally normal. Stick with it and you'll get there. It can be a really long process but if you're with a therapist you like, with whom you feel safe, you will probably connect more emotionally as you connect with your therapist and process your trauma.

 

[Cannottakethis]

I used to be the same way. I could talk about everything that happened to me without even changing the expression on my face. It was like that happened to somebody else. When I was seeing a trauma therapist a few years ago, and I started to tell her my story, she told me to stop because I wasn't feeling any of it. She said it was a form of dissociation, because I was holding your feelings away for me. Shortly after I went to a trauma and PTSD in patient program. That helped me to get in touch with my feelings much more, and I don't tell my story without feeling it anymore. I have been able to process almost all of my trauma, so I don't feel the need to share it as readily anymore either.

 

[erigby]

I have a therapist and she is very nice. I am able to talk about most my trauma. I tell my story as if it h...

thank you for sharing this.
I am struggling with something very similar.
Whenever I talk about the trauma it is as if it happened to another person.
I have no emotional response to it.
I have been wondering if some sort of disassociation has been happening.
Even now, in an emotionally intense state, I look back and don't recognize myself in the situation.
I am beginning to think or understand this is a by product of C-PTSD?
I don't know how helpful it is to live into or find those emotions though.
I haven't done it yet.

 

[purpleswirled]

feeling the same too....when something triggers me when i'm not specifically thinking of the abuse i get very emotional but when i talk about what actually happened to me it as though it didn'yt happen to me

i have only recently realised how much trauma i had happened to me that i minimised or blocked out. seems that i have blocked a lot out...