Ten, Twenty, Thirty - Words, For When Sentences Evade You

[anonymous]

Ten: Headache, fear, hurt, betrayal, silenced, short, irritable, overwhelmed, alone, ptsd,

Twenty: What to do? Stuck, moving, daily duties, never ending, turn this around, memorable walk, revisited where I grew up, worthwhile,

Thirty: Existence, Why? How? Need spiritual growth, spiritual maturity, feeling frustrated, overtaken, broken, alone, silenced, headache, f'ck thirty words, hid another's weed, he should've been more responsible, too many responsibilties, damn.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Grrr, why? ugh, it's not fair, it hurts too much

What the f*ck? What the actual f*ck? Where am I? What am I? Why am I? Miami, no flipping thanks

Fair, summer, festivals, fools, idiots, sheeple, blank, alienated, stuck, f*ck, trapped, lost, moth, flame, cursed, desert and deserted, blood sugar, idiot, fool, thrownness, need order, need to forget, need, rebirth

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Cookie, tanooki, bahooki, stookie, censored words that may offend, end

Day sucked, wrists hurt like hell, shell, well well, bell, dumb-bell, more like, tactless psych, wanna ride my bike

Long gone, can't live in the past, like daddy, gull of the sea, big f*cking bee, disconnect these electrodes from me so I can scream, but keep beating ffs, steak

 

[NatBird]

water runs cat away from the door he walks fast

the candle is sleeping, no sail, no spear through night empty bottles linger idle happening in the hallway too much

skin hardens, curls, shade fades to an odour to investigate she nibbles at her hind leg, looks up to check the wilting plant is still wilting against the sink waiting

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Quandary snow white healing path oneness cheated Sunday cheetah slipping

Away callisto catalyst adhesive ducks graffiti pogs scritti politti temperance wheel of Fortune nectar shower sea of nectar limitless untitled

O2 oz doves processing journal sky space luminous akasha tablet rub al khali empty quarter southern arabia oman essence presence Tuesday raincoats on Tuesday notes glens shadow dance keel handlebars

 

[expectingbetter]

10: why, could be, nice, but, all, ever, never, again, me

20: fear, loneliness, wish, hope, but, scared, want, but, still, don't, hot, pain, believe, dream, wanna have, somebody, alive, human being

30: did much, but get nothing, in return, always betrayed, but still long, for people, also scared, from them, happiness, doubtful, am I deserve it, really, me, after all, no idea

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Chameleon forest butterfly bubble float summer cycle beach shells footprints

Happy shiny smiling lighthouse fresh breeze sandcastles rock pools Frisbee fun fluorescent Bermuda shorts sunglasses arcade sonic the hedgehog yay

50p rock souvenirs castles knights caverns sky tower marine drive sun centre happy jawbreakers corn pops cocoa bunk bed famous five sleepy sand freckles elation horse magical treasure love grateful

 

[The Albatross]

10: stuck, frustrated, wussy, avoidant, intimidated, regretful, disgusted, disappointed in myself

20: need to perform, buck up, embrace the suck, turn it on and turn it up today, rise to the occasion

30: Feelings are not facts, procrastination will make it worse, time is a factor here so get on with it, zero in on one thing and follow it to the end, & repeat.

 

[Leisel]

10:
Sick worried health
Tired
Have to pee
Can I sleep?
20:
Where to live
Where is safe?
Afraid of making mistakes
What if I am not safe
Afraid
Exhausted
Worn out
30:
Sometimes very lonely
Am I alone?
I really don't know
Want to feel safe, secure, certain
Instead, life seems flimsy.
Don't know what to do.
Tired. Uncertain. Lonely. But hopeful.

 

[The Albatross]

10: stressed, anxious, trepidation, disappointment, my fault, lack of confidence, distressed

20: worried, stuck, cause for concern, problems, unmotivated, difficulty with decisions, afraid to change, trying to remember why I thought I could do this

30: feeling like a coward, lacking actions in line with the tasks, coming up short, fear of failure, how do I manage?, how can I feel cautiously optimistic about all this, dunno.

 

[The Albatross]

10: grieving Daisy, a blessing, a relief, a fear, too alone

20: rested, feeling better physically, emotionally stoic, better than yesterday, much to do, little time, must manage better somehow, some way

30: trying timed activities today, again, trying not to feel defeated before I even start, trying not to be the cause for concern or worry, oh how I hate to disappoint

 

[Friday]

10 : tired guilt shame grief anger electric sleep despair hatred pain

20 : kids school work plans homes people places things time accountability despair irritation jealousy uselessness fear faces touch loss held mourning

30 : wrong choices fall feeling unfeeling weak vexing drama fail force cheerful hide invisible fight better valor loss change insult injury sleep voices tone lest find pain never slept reel 17 whining rain