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Texas trigger - hoping harvey wipes it off the map.

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I am a Texan, and in this Harvey mess, and I was in Rita, and I am triggered out of my mind. Flashbacks and anxiety thru the roof and I am safe.
OP, I do understand what you are saying.... and I knew what you meant... I do not take your comments personal. Not at all.... We are on a mental health forum.. You were expressing your feelings. You owned that it was not literally what you meant... Please don't feel shame for trying to get help at a time that is overwhelming for others.... we EACH are responsible for what we feel when reading someone.

As you shared, you know what needs to be shared in your next T session... I'm sure this has blindsided you and possibly wasn't aware of how deep your feelings went.... you simply shared how you were feeling, and even said you didn't want everyone dead.... it was your fear and the memories surfacing that overwhelmed you.... this is just to say, I understand, did not take it personal.... and do hope you are able to sort this out.. it is very painful for you and sending you places in your mind that are extreme... that's what we do , with PTSD, we go to the extreme when we are first trying to deal with being overwhelmed and feeling powerless.....

I was trapped for 9 days with the 'Manson Family' in the backwoods of Louisiana where we got the corner of the storm.... I almost lost my mind before we were found and rescued out of there. I was relocated to another town after Rita, which really helped me in the long run... but had a lot to deal with , without my support group of 'down home'.... and with this storm, and some of my friends from home having catastrophic things to deal with right now.... and the amount of rain we got here also..... I was having flashbacks until I was exhausted...

Thank you for this thread...it shows the courage you had OP to say how you felt and what you needed because this was personal for you in a different way..... just letting you know, this Texan did not take your post or feelings personal..... you feel what you feel... and used the words you had to express yourself... hope you let us know how things go with your next T session... that is a ton of hurt you rexperianced. and it deserves to be acknowledged.... sending gentle hugs for your future healing with this.
 
This message is for the OP. I totally understand where you are coming from. I was subjected to significantly traumatic events repeatedly in Texas that were compounded by the way I was treated in school when I lived there. The Texas stuff is triggering for me and I am kind of disturbed at how I feel. Part of me thinks...these people were cruel to me and showed no mercy when I needed it the most. Why should I care? Then that thought makes me feel bad because the last thing I want to do is sink to their level, but PTSD isn't always rational.

Of course my rational self knows there are good people there. I did live in Houston and, thankfully, all of my friends are safe. But yes, my experience with Texas and the people in it was largely a bad one and this entire event has been very triggering for me.
 
Why should you care? You don't have to there will be plenty of other people who will and will fill in the gap as you deal with your issues and perhaps examine why there's been conflation to a whole state for the wrongs done to you and what to do about it.
 
I'm not saying "pretend you don't have feelings"... I'm saying "caring" is optional and you don't have to. This natural disaster made you aware of your feelings... but farther than that, is also... optional.
 
Thanks, k... so that this occurred and you have awareness about it and your feelings... is an opportunity to heal and is an insight into areas that you may still have some work to do k?
 
Has watching the devastation given you any sense of relief or joy? I doubt it, but maybe it has. And if it has it would be a confirmation to you that yes, indeed this is a serious problem to deal with. I am the type of person that still feels bad for my enemies when they suffer. My therapist tells me I give too many passes. (Opposite of you, I suppose). Your brain has decided that an entire state of people is "the enemy" and you don't give passes. I think this is the same thought process that people have when they create wars. You wronged me and my family.... all of you should die. Historically, this line of thinking has been going on since the beginning of time. I don't know if you can change it. Maybe, it is just human nature. However, you posted, so you probably really do want to change it.
 
Just for the record, the above is not me (the one you were initially replying to). It's another poster.
 
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