The journey begins ... or continues ... articulating the rollercoaster that is my life

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My zentangle I worked on, colouring, when I first got in to "TDU"

 

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This is one I started, in the second week, because I was feeling very "jagged".

 

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This one relates to the final week's topic, which was "cognitive distortions". Which, ironically, was something only I had been phrasing, the previous week,so perhaps one of my fellow patients picked up on that and wanted to explore the concept more. We had a very democratic process with a "suggestion box" which people could place relevant. topic suggestions for the weeks group therapy focus. I did not vote for this.

 

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Incidentally, I don't think any of these, above are finished, but I wanted to share some of my process and words aren't coming so easily for me, at the moment.

 

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This one was done, during group, during the final week, of topic "cognitive distortions".

 

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This one, in my last days. I got home on Sunday night, and it's Tuesday today.

 

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So how are you feeling?? Did it help?

 

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So how are you feeling?? Did it help?

In a word "yes" , it helped. I've been quite hyper though, since I got back, but not in a horrible way.
It helped very tangibly, in that going into my home village, which, previously, I had been like a scared bunny in, much of the time, I was able to much more easily and comfortably and confidently, operate in.
So that's a Big plus! :-)
I am in process of applying for a housing transfer, on medical grounds, which I have as an option in the community housing providers I'm housed by, so my housing stresses and triggers will be much lessened (that's the plan anyway. I'm also going to be having another of my children living with me, and close by and seeing lots of, two others.

I'm also going back to Belmont in early July, and on a yoga retreat weekend in April.

 

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Good to have you back online:)

Going home can always be a bit of a gamble - some people find the sudden vaccuum of support really destabilising, so it’s great to hear that you’re finding the positive. And there’s a whole lotta positive, yeah!?

Great to hear you have solid plans for your further treatment and recovery. Strength to strength. Two thumbs up warrior lady!

 

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Destabilizing, yes, I did indeed get a sense of that, and hyper, manic, but "high functioning" was how I dealt with it.

I made some great friends while in there too, and have rung one since getting out.

Today the hyper has dropped into super tired.

I resorted to valium yesterday, after going cold turkey on it, as I was prescribed inside, coz I wasn't sleeping much and very flight-mode, when in there.

I'm soooooo glad I did it though! The care in there was brilliant. I really, really got a huge lot out of it.