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The journey begins ... or continues ... articulating the rollercoaster that is my life

I just had the truth talk with my ex friend. She didn't take it well. I wasn't mean at all, but she got offended. Ah well. She's extremely unwell and delusional about what her issues are.
I finally called her on it and she stormed out out saying I was judging her.
I also let her know that I don't do surprise visits well.
So I stood up to her and she wigged out because she's just very wiggy and defensive and never wants to listen and be real.
So be it. I spoke my truth. She texted me after, and I texted her back laying it all out, kindly and succinctly. I've know her for nearly 30 years and have seen her psychotic many times. I'm only just now well enough myself to say to her, hey you're really unwell, I'm concerned that you need professional help because you're not getting better. I know what psychosis looks like, I've even been psychotic myself. I wasn't abusive with her.

Oh she just texted me and apparently "I'm delusional". Oh well, denialists habitually denial.
 
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Very seldomly psychotic folks have insight, that's why it's a break from reality right?
When my mom told me I was psychotic, even with awareness and knowing I was crazy, I called her psychotic back. I've seen it happen with other people too.
And psychosis also makes some really defensive. Protective of the 'out there reality'.

I'm sorry it didn't go well, though.
It's bordering impossible to reason with folks who lost reason, right?

If she ever gets well, than maybe she will understand or not.

Either way, good on you for setting boundaries :)

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Thank you @Sietz , I feel good for putting the boundary in. It wasn't a friendship anyway. You can't really have a real friendship with someone so ill and so in denial.
The only thing that enabled any semblance of what she was calling a "friendship" was me not having sufficient wellness, empowerment or courage to be real with her previously, thus enabling some kind of sick codependancy of crazy ladies.
I'm now free of that enervating and super stressful dynamic.:)
 
What 'greatness' to read first thing on the forum today !!! Two NO's, in the same day... pretend you see an emoticon throwing confetti in celebration... !!!

The woman... with all she has going on.. she didn't hear what you were really trying to say. That's ok. When we set boundaries , it's for us, not the other person. And hopefully some will honor that choice, or not.. doesn't matter. Stop engaging. It's what I call 'the dance'. When I choose to stop dancing, then it's that person out there spinning and twirling all by them selves... you have worked very hard to get toxic people out of your life. Doesn't mean we stop caring about their well being, just means they don't get to throw their stuff into our world anymore. Good for you. Very proud of you... you followed thru.

Saying no to sex. That is so huge ! And bless his heart for not taking it personal. Super proud of you for this one.. hope many people read this and know it's OK to say NO.

You've come a long way mums, a long way !!! Lots of gentle hugs for the new you emerging from the past !!
 
What 'greatness' to read first thing on the forum today !!! Two NO's, in the same day... pretend you see...

Thank you so much ladee! I did end up blocking her on my phone.
It's kind of funny, she ended up texting something about not wanting to be friends with a "mentally ill person" , funny as in ironic, because the reason she got offended is because I queried her "ptsd" diagnosis and, as I suspected, that's not a diagnosis she's been given by a professional. She self diagnosed off the internet.
She's done a lot of bonkers things that I've never called her on. She once went up to our local mental health clinic to "prove to them she wasn't mentally ill" by showing them a "naturopathic health mandala" for her daughter who was a baby at the time, she has a syndrome where her legs were stuck out to the side.when she was born and a whole host of other serious health problems.

She ended up having her daughter removed and operated on (she opposed the operation) the girl has lived with her father ever since. She was also involuntarily admitted to the psych clinic (for trying to prove to them how sane she was). She tries to claim that as the cause of her "ptsd".

I said to her "Kate, I was around at that time, you were very unwell before that."

Anyway she wigged out, left saying "she's not here to be judged". And later texted me about how "delusional" I am and how she doesn't want to be brought down by a "mentally ill person".
It would be ironically satirical if it wasn't so tragically hypocritical.

Oh, she's also told me that she's "Isis" (the Egyptian Goddess) in the past and that I can be her "right hand"
 
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I went walking today, again :)
I'm down another 600gms. That's 84.3 kg now.:)
Rang my girl bestie, the one who lost her guy to suicide just a few months ago.
She misses me, is lonely, has been really unwell too.
I'm going to see her on Tuesday.

I'm feeling pretty solid, emotionally.

I tire easily though and really don't want to get out into the world much at all.
I've not touched booze lately.
I've not touched weed for weeks and weeks.
Gonna stay away from it.

My head hurts a bit.

It's a lot more responsibility having my son around but I'm pleased, nonetheless. He's still such a boy. He's spent a lot of time housebound, gaming and being the 5 th youngest, also very stressed from the drug house his Dad runs and having a psychotic autistic brother.
Lots of self-building to do now.
He needs me to be well and functional, all my kids do.
I flag after minimal activities. Too many years doing too much, dealing with too much, waaay too much stress and misery and hardship, scapegoating and loss. Now I'm not looking it, but inside I'm old before my time. I was once for told by a health professional "your insides are old" my organs are all worn out.
Pooooop.
 
Oh, she's also told me that she's "Isis" (the Egyptian Goddess)
Ah, I've been where she is. I didn't self diagnose with anything, but the Isis goddess part. Fun times. /s

Psychosis is a terrible thing. We are not ourselves when we're psychotic. I wish that girl gets better eventually.

I flag after minimal
Baby steps.
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