Hello!
Welp. I've started therapy three weeks ago after the guy I was dating noticed I would have panic attacks in my sleep if a door opened or shut and I wouldn't wake up. I tried to deny every other symptom and put therapy off, but there it was, couldn't ignore that. He's so practical anywho there was no way to explain away why I wouldn't go into therapy. The diagnosis officially came in yesterday. I suppose I can't deny that I have this anymore, which is terrifying. I cope by ignoring things. Now I can't. On the bright side, I managed to find a therapist who is the baddest bitch. And it only took three different therapist consults.
This forum seems nice. I thought I would introduce myself. It's JCray. I'm guessing I've had this for about five years. Unsure if it's caused by a "rapey attackey incident" that I won't define to myself as rape yet, or a combination of that + prior emotional abuse and a homeless stint. (although the homelessness might be explained by the PTSD? but then I would have to admit that this illness has any effect on my life whatsoever and I just really don't like that).
But yeah. Hello and stuff. I'm in denial, but I'm here. I will probably be mostly lurky and reading your posts for a while. In other news I work in marketing and am trying to date people and have a friend. All normal on the outside, but most of us probably are. Also did I mention that I hear you guys are great?
-jcray
Welp. I've started therapy three weeks ago after the guy I was dating noticed I would have panic attacks in my sleep if a door opened or shut and I wouldn't wake up. I tried to deny every other symptom and put therapy off, but there it was, couldn't ignore that. He's so practical anywho there was no way to explain away why I wouldn't go into therapy. The diagnosis officially came in yesterday. I suppose I can't deny that I have this anymore, which is terrifying. I cope by ignoring things. Now I can't. On the bright side, I managed to find a therapist who is the baddest bitch. And it only took three different therapist consults.
This forum seems nice. I thought I would introduce myself. It's JCray. I'm guessing I've had this for about five years. Unsure if it's caused by a "rapey attackey incident" that I won't define to myself as rape yet, or a combination of that + prior emotional abuse and a homeless stint. (although the homelessness might be explained by the PTSD? but then I would have to admit that this illness has any effect on my life whatsoever and I just really don't like that).
But yeah. Hello and stuff. I'm in denial, but I'm here. I will probably be mostly lurky and reading your posts for a while. In other news I work in marketing and am trying to date people and have a friend. All normal on the outside, but most of us probably are. Also did I mention that I hear you guys are great?
-jcray
