Therapist On Vacation

[Laurie2001]

Hey JEK I'm glad my post helped. Its great that you have your cat. I play with my dog and cuddle with her. She's 57 pounds I we literally spoon and wrestle and she licks my face and I feel taken care of. She's not emotionally attuned like some dogs, but she's always ready to play and cuddle when I need her - very loving. I love having a big dog and wish she was even bigger. Its this sense of having a large creature who cares about me and makes me feel protected and safe (although who knows with her - she's afraid of inanimate objects so...). I totally get all your negative thoughts and can relate including self-harm impulses. Its great that you can do guided meditation and that it helps. I did end up going to the hospital at one point - last July. Shepard Pratt which specializes in Traum and DID. It was really helpful and now I'm doing DBT and therapy, and family therapy which can be hell - its complicated why I'm doing it with my mother. Its a whole lot and really drains me - or I should say my emotions and all they entail drain me. I do think DBT is helping me learn to manage, though.

You will get through this. But I for one know that in the moment it doesn't feel that way. I just think its amazing that you can use some things like meditation to help you even if its effects aren't long lasting. Everyone here is so vulnerable. I often feel freakish but it helps to be on the forum and my DBT group helps too because the people are somewhat open with self-harm impulses and other stuff and it makes me feel like I make sense. You know what I mean.

Anyway, take care and I'll be thinking of you.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

I've been to Sheppard-Pratt, too. It has been very helpful and how I have learned how to do some of my guided meditation stuff. I thought about keeping up with DBT, but so far I haven't. I have so many other appointments in my life that doing that seems like too much. I already know a lot so I just keep working with what I do know.

It was a really hard week this past week. I e-mailed my therapist yesterday to confirm that she made it back from vacation and she is back. I can't wait to have my session with her tomorrow, but it will probably be a phone session because of weather, but I am really hoping I can make it the 10 minutes to her office even if it's bad weather because I am not so great on the phone.

I often feel freakish but it helps to be on the forum and my DBT group helps too because the people are somewhat open with self-harm impulses and other stuff and it makes me feel like I make sense. You know what I mean.

Yep, I do know what you mean.