Therapy is hard!

[LucyLou]

Tough session today. I was initially going to skip therapy this week as I was put down to work mon-thurs, as I'm off fri, sat, sun and next mon but I took it off as a sick day and asked Charlotte for a session. You know when you just feel exhausted in all ways, physically, mentally, emotionally and even financially I just needed today off. I booked with her with the thinking I'd speak on a few things but I think I was just so overwhelmed that I cried most of the session She has asked that I be braver with her and let her in but even after 2.5 years, some things just seem to hard....maybe I need to stop thinking about getting all the details out to her about everything because I'm not sure I can (it's not her asking for details, it's what I wanted to do) She spoke about my need for music during session as a distraction, like it might not be a good thing. She mentioned switching to video sessions again but I'm not sure how I feel about it. Not sure if face to face would be harder ,(not as hard as with a stranger but still hard) I honestly trust her with all that I want to talk about....it's just the things that come after, all the thoughts in my head and the not so nice things I say to myself, maybe that's what is stopping me to. I say it all the time but I wish there was a way to make this easier

 

[ags1]

If I say too much in therapy I can spend the following days crying or worrying that my T is angry with me. But after that it is easier for me to talk about that stuff. I use BetterHelp where I keep a journal which I share with my T. I write about everything, including my reactions to therapy.

 

[arfie]

yes, therapy is hard, but for my psycho nickel, the gain of enjoying this glorious sunrise while the memories of long past trauma remain distant, unintrusive memories feels well worth the pain of undergoing the therapy.

i, absotively, wished for an easier way during those early sessions. today, through my 20-20 hindsight glasses, i am not so sure i regret not having found that easier way. i believe today's sunrise is all the more glorious because of the struggle i endured to achieve this day.

 

[gorgonzola]

I tend to get disappointed by having 'light' sessions. But I think my T is trying to be a bit softer touch, so to speak, because I am quite able to become dysregulated with the harder stuff. Or sometimes it's a breeze because I'm utterly disconnected from certain things.

Not that I mind a bit of dysregulation, just that I hear it's generally inconsistent with effective therapeutisation.

 

[Freddyt]

With complex trauma it's always hard - it's never going to be easy. Every time you think you conquered something - it comes roaring back from something you thought was unrelated, or opens a door on new problems.

I just remember what someone once said to me, as long as you keep moving, you are going through it.

 

[Helse Rison]

You’re going through a lot right now, and it’s okay to feel overwhelmed. Opening up takes time, and you don’t have to share everything at once. Therapy is about progress, not perfection.