Hmmm, could it be that you have come to point that you are able to cry and grieve without continuing the burden of carrying the load of pain with you? I see this as being a good thing. Does it mean you are OK...Ok, in that you are more easily able to figure out your triggers without full blown panic, anger or however you are accustomed to reacting? I don't think any of us will be OK to the standard of always on top of the PTSD but perhaps to the point of managing it in a less emotional way would be more logical. I can see where I second guess myself in how I react or don't react now. Maybe looking at this as progress would be beneficial. If it is not, it will eventually let you know and then you can deal with it then. If you are at peace with your lack of reactions, what is wrong with that right now? Maybe it is a reprieve for your mind to relax before you focus on more stuff? After having lived with wrong thinking and skewed views, it is a learning curve to recognize what is healthy again. That can be confusing.
