They Stole Everything From Me

[Littlebirdy44]

I can't get the sound of them laughing out of my head. I can't sleep, or eat. I can't stop asking myself why. Why after everything I've been through, why did this have to happen to me...again! I can't cry anymore, I just don't have any thing left in me..I feel numb. How long will I hurt like this you guys? I need to know. I need someone to be blunt and honest with me. I need to know how long it'll be until I can breathe again!!

 

[Dannyuk78]

Firstly i feel for you, what ever it is seems to be raw and inflamed for you.

In truth it will always hurt but it will possibly get better with time and help, The best thing you can do is seek help if you havent already and feel free to talk with someone or people so that you dont start to lock it all away.

from experiance of locking it all away for years on end the explosion you will have will be far worse than it currently feels and could be deverstating to social and family life.

I wish you all the best and hope this has helped even the smallest amount

 

[Ronin]

Try it /now/.

You don't have to be hurting, right now. Learn how, learn how to get a moment of relief & a sense of comfort and freedom from it all, and then find what made you feel good and move it to every day you can.

They don't have to be in your life, on your mind, forever. You'll outlast them, in every case. Comfort will come.

 

[Isobel Wolf]

@Littlebirdy44 I feel as if you are speaking exactly what I'm thinking. And it's so much worse in the early morning.
How can people spread viciousness? Where is the mercy and what is this supposed to teach us? Is there a point?

The body and the brain aren't forever. That's the only thing that comforts me. It's such bleak and unhelpful advice but real talk, we will be free of them, years and years from now. We, our ego-minds, our pain and joy, are less than microscopic in the grand scope of the life, time, the planet, the galaxy, the universe, which is still expanding. This pain matters to us alone. Earth vibrates with the pain of every living thing struggling to survive. We are vibrating in sympathy. Until we're released, we keep breathing, existing in our meaninglessness to the cold stars, only in control of our own meaning. Then it will end.

 

[Littlebirdy44]

I just don't want to do this anymore

 

[ladee]

Most of us feel this way or have felt this way.
It doesn't last forever. We do heal what we can . Some of it remains but at a level we can live with. And
Even times we forget it's there.
This is the hardest thing you will ever do. And you will want to quit many times.
And you will have to take breaks.
You will be told you are worth the work and hate us for giving you hope..only to return to pain.
Read around this forum. Find thread titles that resonate with you.
It won't last forever.
I know where you are.
And I am so sorry you were hurt so deeply ..again.
But you are here.
They did not take your voice.
You still have your voice..and whethere you believe this or not..your voice will be more powerful than the pain inflicted.
Sending you gentle hugs if you accept.