My psych recently messed up and refused to fill my prescription for EMSAM, which is an anti-depressant, without a face-to-face appointment. After some fighting over the phone, the office sheepishly admitted that they got confused and she shouldn't have denied the refill request since EMSAM is not an anxiety med. Then it turns out, she was unavailable for SIX days. I am unstable and aggravated.
On top of it, I seriously hurt my ankle. It started to roll and I jerked it back the other way. I basically formed a right angle with my foot and leg. It's in a cast, after 6 hours of sitting in an Emergency room shaking out of panic and pain. I didn't sleep last night because it hurt so bad, and that is doing nothing to alleviate my symptoms. I feel like I'm dying and I want more than anything to be drugged out unconscious (one of my unhealthy coping skills).
On top of it all, they suggested I take a mild over-the-counter pain medication for my ankle while it is in the cast. I told them that my liver is not functioning fully and that pain medication has been banned by my doctor. They went "Oh ... well the pain should go down in three days."
I'm not coping well. I feel trapped and its triggering me repeatedly, and the pain does nothing to ease my nerves. I have no idea why they wouldn't prescribe pain meds but I was in such a panic to leave that I didn't push the issue. Needless to say, I really, really hurt and I'm nervous and torn up. I don't know what to do or how to cope. I can't even get out of bed for a while because we are waiting for the swelling to go down to see if I need surgery to repair the ligaments (that means no weight on my ankle at all until we know, not that I'd put any on it if I could. I can barely move my toes).
I don't know what to do. I want to black out. My anxiety is overwhelming, panic attacks keep cropping up at random and I fear I'm primed for flashbacks being confined and trapped and unable to move. Even xanax is barely touching my anxiety.
On top of it, I seriously hurt my ankle. It started to roll and I jerked it back the other way. I basically formed a right angle with my foot and leg. It's in a cast, after 6 hours of sitting in an Emergency room shaking out of panic and pain. I didn't sleep last night because it hurt so bad, and that is doing nothing to alleviate my symptoms. I feel like I'm dying and I want more than anything to be drugged out unconscious (one of my unhealthy coping skills).
On top of it all, they suggested I take a mild over-the-counter pain medication for my ankle while it is in the cast. I told them that my liver is not functioning fully and that pain medication has been banned by my doctor. They went "Oh ... well the pain should go down in three days."
I'm not coping well. I feel trapped and its triggering me repeatedly, and the pain does nothing to ease my nerves. I have no idea why they wouldn't prescribe pain meds but I was in such a panic to leave that I didn't push the issue. Needless to say, I really, really hurt and I'm nervous and torn up. I don't know what to do or how to cope. I can't even get out of bed for a while because we are waiting for the swelling to go down to see if I need surgery to repair the ligaments (that means no weight on my ankle at all until we know, not that I'd put any on it if I could. I can barely move my toes).
I don't know what to do. I want to black out. My anxiety is overwhelming, panic attacks keep cropping up at random and I fear I'm primed for flashbacks being confined and trapped and unable to move. Even xanax is barely touching my anxiety.
