This Is For Everyone One Week From Today

[macbeth]

I am loving it@ Sammyiam

 

[macbeth]

My beautiful stepson gave it a go too! He drew a kitchen with patterns God bless.

 

[seedling]

I just got the time to finish this from last week.

This is how I feel - all over the place.

 

[Sammyiam]

@seedling that is so cool I love all the colours in it. If it is what you say and it is how you are feeling at least you can still see and feel colours, as long as you can see all the beautiful colours seedling, its when you only see black that it gets pretty dark in side. The way you feel inside will hopefully get you though the hard times, I really hope that when you look at what you have drawn it shows you what a wonderful person you are and that gives you the strength to get through this horrible thing called PTSD.

I still have been unable to start mine, I'm not to flash on this thread when I carnt even start one myself am I. I'm sorry to everyone on this thread for not doing the very thing I have asked everyone else to do. I am sitting here thinking that my colours are all fading away and turning from what I thought was Grey to a shade of black inside. I feel that I am losing my battle with all of this and just going through the motions as nothing anymore. Just an empty shell of nothing.

I'm really sorry everyone. Maybe @macbeth or @Nam or @Nighthawk or anyone who has done wonderful pictures can take over this thread and encourage every one to keep on with this I don't feel right encouraging everyone when I carnt even do it myself .

Thanks everyone for all the amazing doodles and drawings and I'm sorry

 

[littlelostchild]

@Sammyiam i hope you keep encouraging everyone! You may not be drawing right now, but your kind words mean a lot to everyone. I appreciate that you started this thread and hope you continue to check in with it. You are a very special person.

Sometimes in our lives there is darkness as a contrast to see the light and I believe that all of the darkness will soon give way to a brighter path, Sammy. You are a strong and wonderful person! Be sure to remember that.

 

[Kintsugi]

@Nighthawk I bought a two pack of fine-tipped sharpies--one for me, and one for the friend I dragged into zentangles with me. :D They work super well.

 

[seedling]

@Sammyiam, thanks for the encouraging words. I have a hard time feeling that my colorings matter at all.

I'm not to flash on this thread when I carnt even start one myself am I

You are flash, though. You are absolutely right to encourage us, what would we do without you.
I see you as our leader and moderator :) That is an important role to fill. If that's the first step in your own artwork journey, it's a big one.

I used to color a lot of black. I am encouraged by the colors now, and surprised by them I think. Something is working in me that I can't always be in touch with. I sometimes wish I had a huge piece of paper and a bucket of black paint to just swipe all over it in big strokes.

Just an empty shell of nothing.

Are you looking toward what you aren't doing and expecting you "should" be doing that, instead of looking toward what you are doing and recognizing your worth?

It's OK to let the coloring come however it does. And black is OK.

 

[Deleted member 28740]

@Sammyiam You have brought out and inspired the best in us. That is also an art, and you achieved all of that. Thank you for inspiring us all, nurturing us all.

I may be in the same mindset or hell set - fear blocks me from doing many things, it all becomes personal to my sense of self. Not ego or pride just can I bear another self-failure - all in my own criteria not anyone else's. My own worst critic. Goes easy on your self. My dog loves me no matter what, I should love my self in the same way. She is a good dog, and I am a good person. Only she does not berate herself.

 

[seedling]

One more

 

[Nam]

This thread has been on my mind. I said I was going to donate and would like to bring this particular fundraiser to a close.

I counted 26 drawings total. 104.00 usd will be donated. Thank you all that have participated!
@Sammyiam 4.00. @The One Who Knocks 4.00. @macbeth 20.00. @cherryblossom 4.00. @SheilaKathy 16.00. @seedling 16.00. @Jane1991 4.00. @littlelostchild 8.00. @Simply Simon 8.00. @Nighthawk 4.00. @Recovery4Me 4.00. @ptsdspouse2b 8.00.

 

[Sammyiam]

Hi everyone thank you also for doing this, thank you @Nam for donating as well.

I haven't forgotten but have been busy with my Mum and now she has passed away I may get me life sorted a little. I have to go get pre paid cards to pay and will do that in the next couple of weeks.

I just hope no one thinks I have forgotten, it's just life has been a little crazy the last month or so.

I also am giving a $100.00 to start the new total off which I will include in the zentangle total. Which I offered while the challenge was on,

Thank you very much for everyone who helped with this thread

Sammy

 

[seedling]

@Sammyiam and @Nam, here's another coloring I made tonight. In gratitude for your generosity to the site, thank you.