Tired Of The Journey

[The Albatross]

Tessa, I am so sorry for your struggles and can relate to living in a disaster prone area (I'm on the Gulf of Mexico here in NW Florida U.S.) I hope that you get peace, safety, security and calm. And I think you are amazing.

 

[alixipain]

Anni is right about the tribes. The Lakota have the highest suicide rate of all the tribes. Many natives believe the reason the Lakotas are treated the way they are is they where the only people to declare war on the americas homeland.

Some have Casinos to raise their funds. To me its trading one demon for another.. Trade the alcohol for gambling!

 

[Tessa]

I guess I am only suffering a small part of what Aboriginal people suffer daily. I witness disempowerment and people knocked down by a culture which thinks it is the only "right" one. Perhaps I am priviledged to share in their pain which will help me understand more when I care for them. The pain inside my heart might make my touch gentler and my words kinder as we seek to walk this lonely road together.

 

[Tessa]

I guess I am only suffering a small part of what Aboriginal people suffer daily. I witness disempowerment and people knocked down by a culture which thinks it is the only "right" one. Perhaps I am priviledged to share in their pain which will help me understand more when I care for them. The pain inside my heart might make my touch gentler and my words kinder as we seek to walk this lonely road together.

 

[BloomInWinter]

...as we seek to walk this lonely road together.

Though this hardly seems like a bright, shiny type of silver lining, your struggle has really opened my eyes to the plight of those you care for, and I notice and act on awareness/actionable things when I can, now. Bet there are others, too.

Your struggles are NOT without meaning nor witness.

Much (((hugs))) and warm wishes to you, Tessa!

 

[Tessa]

Thankyou so much Bloom,I hope my book will help to raise awareness also.
Thankyou also for the many hugs you have sent me through this nightmare struggle.

 

[Froggie]

Caught up on some reading. Oh my Tessa, this is so wonderful that you had the strenght to write a book about this situation. I am certain this will be an eye opener for many. Those who abused of the system will be shaking in their woolies and probably :poop: in their pants. But it is a minimal price to pay compared to what the aboriginals have been put through... Bravo ((((Tessa))))

 

[anni]

Not so lonely anymore, I do hope, however dreary. So, so often awareness is what is needed to begin the slow shift in conditions for a people. As absurd as it is to think about in 2011, it wasn't until a book "Uncle Tom's Cabin" was written and read by the Northern population back in the 1800's were the abysmal living conditions and daily life of the American slaves really revealed for what it was ( as if the actual horrific, indefensable crime of humans owning humans wasn't enough!!! ). Really galvinated public opinion and helped the pro-war movement to free the slaves to gain momentum. Words are so powerful and you wrote some. I think it's going to provide an awful lot of very good company.

 

[Tessa]

Thankyou all for your kind comments. My book is actually an autobiography and is very personal however I hope the real live stories of working to care for the people of the outback,both black and white, will touch some hearts to bring understanding and care.
I feel so numb again (it is almost constant) as I try to duck from the blows of those who have lost their care. It is amazing that I went off work vey depressed and suicidal and have walked a long slow walk back to here with the help of a psychologist. I cannot believe that I now seem to be the target of some sort of disciplinary action instead of assistance to cope.
We are still surrounded by floodwaters and the large crocs circle around waiting to devour a dog or child. Sometimes I cry for all I lost in the floods and the total lack of care shown to a small remote Aboriginal community.
Thankyou again my PTSD friends for your hugs and care. Perhaps we are all more aware of others suffering because of the traumas we all share.
Hugs

 

[Tessa]

The darkness beckons - it is all too hard to keep fighting towards the light which seems to be teasing by being further away each time you think you are catching up.

 

[anni]

You do carry your own light, Tessa-am not just saying something which sounds poetic, you just do. Your patients and family see it even if you can't find the thing for the darkness out there. We can feel it here too in your words and work and being.

Prayers and Peace to you, and hugs,

Anni

 

[Tessa]

Trying so hard to manage caring for my daughter,yet not intruding,living in the city and coping with lifts and shopping centres. Was going well until my sons wedding and thje panic attacks stasrted with full force again. It makes me feel like ending all the misery. Who wants a person who cant even walk into a shopping centre. I was working up to coping with the lifts however they have a malfuction whichj makes it worse. Very down ansd would give anything to see my husband and return to the bush...