Freddyt
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So to start, I am on Cortisone Acetate, Flourocortisone, and Synthroid as maintenance meds for Addison's disease. All good and stable. The only med of those that has changed since I was diagnosed is Synthroid.
In between there and here there have been three addiction episodes with Codeine. The last one was scary.
Now I am being handed new med's all the time and I really don't trust the fact I have have been given them by 4 different doctors. So the list:
Lorazepam - From the dentist. Got a few tabs for before visits. I have no problem with this one.
Rexulti - got as far as "dangerous drops in blood pressure" before that was a solid no. I know what happens when my blood pressure drops seriously and one of the worst parts is general confusion - like worse than brain fog and that means I may not reach out for help.
Vyvanse 10 mg - Hated this stuff. Felt like I do when over-medicated from my maintenance meds and blood pressure was up. Dangerous for me because a drop in blood pressure is the first sign something is wrong like I have a flu or cold or an infection that could kill me. Took it for a week and quit. One thing it did do was change my bedtime. If things are right I can get to sleep before 2 AM (Yeah...)
Sertraline 50 mg - This one is addictive no? I want to stay away from addictive because of past problems. Basically getting it filled so I can get support money. The Psychiatrist said they want to see you medicated before they offer support so...
The reality of where I am is trauma has been found - twice. Really since December we haven't added more than a couple reprocessing tasks. Therapy has been more about dealing with executive function stuff that continues to be the biggest source of frustration / anxiety for me. I know I may have some mild depression but I think its more associated with having to put on the "disability" tag than anything else at this point. Unless there is something hiding in memory I think we have done therapy for trauma and I feel way better than I have since September. No big struggles right now just a bit of agoraphobia because I haven't been out and around people enough and a huge blind spot where my trigger spot is.
In between there and here there have been three addiction episodes with Codeine. The last one was scary.
Now I am being handed new med's all the time and I really don't trust the fact I have have been given them by 4 different doctors. So the list:
Lorazepam - From the dentist. Got a few tabs for before visits. I have no problem with this one.
Rexulti - got as far as "dangerous drops in blood pressure" before that was a solid no. I know what happens when my blood pressure drops seriously and one of the worst parts is general confusion - like worse than brain fog and that means I may not reach out for help.
Vyvanse 10 mg - Hated this stuff. Felt like I do when over-medicated from my maintenance meds and blood pressure was up. Dangerous for me because a drop in blood pressure is the first sign something is wrong like I have a flu or cold or an infection that could kill me. Took it for a week and quit. One thing it did do was change my bedtime. If things are right I can get to sleep before 2 AM (Yeah...)
Sertraline 50 mg - This one is addictive no? I want to stay away from addictive because of past problems. Basically getting it filled so I can get support money. The Psychiatrist said they want to see you medicated before they offer support so...
The reality of where I am is trauma has been found - twice. Really since December we haven't added more than a couple reprocessing tasks. Therapy has been more about dealing with executive function stuff that continues to be the biggest source of frustration / anxiety for me. I know I may have some mild depression but I think its more associated with having to put on the "disability" tag than anything else at this point. Unless there is something hiding in memory I think we have done therapy for trauma and I feel way better than I have since September. No big struggles right now just a bit of agoraphobia because I haven't been out and around people enough and a huge blind spot where my trigger spot is.