Today Is So Hard.

[JohnD]

Yesterday I had a severe panic attack.

Today, I feel sick and depressed. I am having lots of thoughts of suicide. Usually, I only get like this when I dissociate, I'm not dissociated today and I still can't get the thought out of my head.

I'm home alone, and the only caregiver for my kids at the moment. I have to keep thinking about them constantly. I feel like they'd be better off with someone else.

I'm not really functioning today.

 

[Stickler]

I find that intense ideation tends to last for a few hours at worst? To ride through it, grab ahold of your favorite distractions.
..I suggest video games, comedy routines (youtube ), cheesy sitcoms, cakewrecks.com, engrish.com, being kind to yourself, making a small charity donation if you can, taking a walk if you have time.

I take meds. I needed a mood stabilizer to control severe mood downspikes, my antidepressants alone were not cutting it.