Too Emotionally Distant

[Deleted member 28862]

@ptsdspouse2b No I don't mind, the more feed back the better. You have really great points! Like I said, I don't really have much problems with taking care of my self other than my eating disorder and my sleeping problems.....two things I don't have control over. As for everything else I'm fine, I take care of other people around me just fine, if someone calls all me I'll do everything in my power to help them out, if I know I can't from the very beginning I'll tell them I won't be able to fulfill their wishes. It's just the loving yourself before someone loves you part. I was never shown true love, so I can't differentiate true love, unconditional love, lust, etc etc. Even if someone comes along and is the pinnacle of love I won't know because.....well I just won't know. Then the being open to getting hurt bit falls into play, I've been hurt by people very close to me, sorry to say but I'm not open to getting close to someone just to be hurt whats the point. I see the probability of getting hurt of getting love and it turns me off , why is it that you get hurt times and times again and then find that one person. I rather not, it's not my forte, it doesn't make since to me, but I still want to be loved. Like I said i'm very confused.


:arghh; you know what, forget it I give up

 

[shimmerz]

@Esha242 , pathetic has got to be a projection from my own 'stuff' I think I need to stop posting for a bit. So sorry.