Trauma Clinic Assessment

[Mercy]

Congratulations on your clear goal setting and being brave enough to read back through your journal. It is just great that you have noticed the difference from the beginning up to now. Wow, there really is such a thing as hope. I know there is more work to do , for me too. Successes like this one are valuable in their own right. They are even more valuable when a tough time hits.

 

[Nighthawk]

Was not sure what to think but this is starting to brew in my head. My TT seems to mention how much time we have spent together in almost every session lately. I guess I am going to have to ask him about it. It makes me very nervous.
I am not sure if he is trying to tell me he knows me or if he is saying we are stuck or that he needs me gone.

 

[Tinyflame]

I have a problem recognizing 'time' (as in months/ 'years').
Perhaps he means = a good thing/ not 'day one', re: 'trust', progress, learning, etc.

I have to (almost) remind myself always it isn't 'day one'.
Maybe ask what he means?
(((NH)))

 

[seedling]

Yeah, they always say those cryptic things and hope we get it don't they? :O_o::laugh:

I think he is trying to let you know that you truly can trust him, that the two of you have spent a quantity of time together and all has been well. That there is a foundation there.

I definitely don't think he wants you gone. Good luck asking him about it, let us know what he says.

(((((NH)))))))))) big hugs to you

 

[anni]

Yes, I think he's telling you it's cool to relax, that he's there for the long haul, that everything you need to get through will be done together and it's ok to trust. Our heads have an awful time interpreting things in any other way than somehow negatively, I know. I know I can never quite get the correct meaning, either, or believe it until it's pretty much spelled out for me. It's just tough to get the head to begin assuming the good in things. :) I'm sure we'll get there!

Hugs,

Anni

 

[Tinyflame]

Boy Anni that's sure true-
? :confused: ?

 

[Mercy]

1. How to trust people a little more including TT
2. Not to read into things to the tenth degree
3. Fight for self-validation and fight to not invalidate myself
4. Learn to not compound issues as one
5. Learn to live amongst the living

.... We spoke about them one by one and he pointed out that just a few weeks ago I would have not been able to give him anything much. ..... It actually was a good session and to take note of progress and the slow direction of forward was much needed.

After all of this I decided to read back on some of my posts and journal and was actually amazed at the progress I have made..... WOW :speechless: I can only recommend to myself to try pay closer attention to all the small hard hurdles I have crossed.

NH

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Dear NH,
I agree with you, WOW[DLMURL="https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/javascript:;"] :laugh:[/DLMURL] and HOORAY. [DLMURL="https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/javascript:;"]:tup:[/DLMURL]

Your goals are so much like mine but I haven't put them into words. Thank you for helping me find words. I'm going to make a list. It will be a little different too. We are different individuals

 

[Nighthawk]

Who new that my path with this T would mean so much to me. T left last week he is moving to another town. Having a hard time putting things into words. Just got to say I am a mess and there are good ones out there.:cry:

 

[maddog]

Oh, Nighthawlk... wishing there were words enough to convey my sorrow for how you must feel.

After so long, both chronologically and in terms of your journey, it is little wonder you feel the way you do. I can barely imagine, and prefer not to, how I would feel if my T were to leave...

Sometimes the greatest gift is in learning that you are able to trust, and that there are those worth trusting in this world. Your progress is a testiment to your courage and your ability to thrive under his guidance.

Sending you strength, and hope,

Maddog

 

[Nighthawk]

Sinking without a paddle or a boat.

 

[Grace Hope]

Nighthawk

I`m sure things will go well for you and you will find another T. Don`t give up hope.

Change is hard for us, big changes make our world fall apart for a while. We grieve for the times when we leave behind something that gives us comfort and a bit of stability. This is natural, so because we are more sensitive than some other people about emotional issues and psychological stability. It just hurts like hell for now but that hurt won`t last for always. Let yourself have a bit of space and allow yourself to realise that you are having a hard time and that it won`t feel like this for ever.

God bless
Clan Destany

 

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(((NH)))

Going to bed with a hot blanket, what a treat. That is the ultimate in comfort good for you. Sorry this process is getting so stretched out. Would'nt it be nice if we could get these things done fast. I hate suspense. I really hate suspense. Don't have to worry about you taking care of yourself. You are a very positive person. YOu are always doing things to uplift.

Thinking of you on the journey. Snuggle under the hot blanket. Pure genious. You are amazing. Even tho you may not be feeling this way.