Trauma Diary & Therapy

[Crow]

Wondering if I should share my diary with T. Seems like we could fast track some stuff and I wouldn't be paying for her time reading. But then a lot of safety is gone. What if I get angry with her and need a place to vent? Opinions?

 

[digger]

But then a lot of safety is gone. What if I get angry with her and need a place to vent? Opinions?

Just print out the bits that you think would be useful for her to read? Or copy/paste them into an email for her?

 

[Deleted member 29920]

If you get angry with her, would it be more helpful to just tell her she made you feel that way?

 

[watundah]

Cant disagree re: trying to fast track but if they're like mine wont promise unlimited time to reading. I might just copy highights and keep the rest to myself.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Wondering if I should share my diary with T. Seems like we could fast track some stuff and I wouldn'...

I agree with the other posts. Just copy and share what you want to share.
You should be able to tell your T when you are angry at her.
I don't know if you have trouble sharing uncomfortable feelings with everyone or just your T but if it is with everyone, then talking to your T when you are upset is an excellent place to start.

One other thing... before you do print out and take things in for your T to read, run it by her first and see what she says.
If you get an affirmative, start slow.
I say this because I had the same idea with my last T. It didn't work out too well and I was extremely hurt by it.

All the best!

 

[Tinyflame]

It's good to save money, though the 'saving time' part could backfire like flooding. In fact, do you find ll/ ny disclosure is hard/ takes time to accept / deal with the turmoil? :(

But I have to ask, how would you know what parts to share? Or rather, if you knew which parts wouldn't you just breech those? :confused:

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Wondering if I should share my diary with T. Seems like we could fast track some stuff and I wouldn'...

I read my therapist some of the stuff i write on here and then we OPENLY discuss it; not a good trait of me, to talk about stuff out loud. I dont think the act of reading him the stuff does much for me, im dyslexic & my brain doesnt process what im reading until ive read it 5 time ish. Its the open discussion where i cant ecaspe that does the most good, & my therapist is good at keeping me from disassociating while discussing, or know when i have & get me out of it, watching/reading my body laungage as i never look at him, & making me emtionally "ok" ish before i leave so i dont go drive into on coming traffic or anything.

Its more about your relationship w/ her, how safe you feel w/ your emotions in her hands, and it certianly doesnt have to be everything.

Plus you can still vent here after.

Just my 2 cents on my own expierence.

 

[Crow]

I have no problem telling T when I'm upset but I usually have to do some processing to get my thoughts clear. That's one thing I've used the forum for in the past.

T and I can talk about anything. I don't think I'm embarrassed about anything I say in session anymore. Took a long time to get here but now I prefer to look her in the eye when having a discussion about hard things. I'm told that a healthier way to do things :)

T doesn't accept emails about therapy related stuff because of HIPPA regulations so emailing her the parts of the diary isn't an option. I was just thinking I'm going into much more detail and the posts are relatively condensed so she could get more details than we get to usually in 50 or 60 minutes AND I think the progression of the posts is pretty interesting.

I guess I'll keep it as my own space. Maybe not having to share every little detail with T is also a more healthy way of living....who knows. It's all new to me!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Maybe not having to share every little detail with T is also a more healthy way of living....who knows. It's all new to me!

Its all new to me too!

I cant look at my therapist, i think i have looked at him a handful of times in 7 yrs...poor guy lol.

Im on this site on my phone, so its easy to say "hey i posted about this" and bring it up and read it.

It helps me cuz im numb in session, he has worked VERY hard to pull all of my past out of me. Im def embarrased to talk about stuff but i do embarassing stuff...

I think the bigest thing is due to being numb, auto thing...i dont yet have control over that, he can see where my head is between sessions, where i am emotionally & where i am progressing or need to work on and we dont do much in session but "catch up"; to do anything else would take more than the 45 ish mins i have.

He gives me "home work" every session so he can see how ive done that; usually done here.

Before this site id write down stuff (most very VERY dark) and read it to him.

I dunno, everyone is in a different place and process stuff different. Its awesome you can look at her in the face, thats a big issue for me. That shows how much progress you've made! Maybe you dont need to show her?

 

[halflifeguy]

I had thought about diary sharing too, but I can honestly say... I don't think my current T would read it, and I don't think it'd be worth the effort as I do so much work outside of sessions.

 

[Crow]

I hear ya @halflifeguy . My T would read it but I'm thinking it may interrupt or complicate our flow.....we've been making incredible progress lately.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

My T would read it but I'm thinking it may interrupt or complicate our flow.....we've been making incredible progress lately.

Whenever i have doubf about that, i ask first, like pulling my father into therapy wasnt smart; at that time or for a while.

Certianly.you dont want to slow up progress but it doesnt hurt to ask and see if parrs might help. It may or it may be better to just leave it out for now.