Trauma therapy is exhausting. But I'm doing it because I want.... (fill in the blank)

[Druidcat]

I'm doing it because it is seriously affecting my health. I want to live and run my business. But the things in my past and sometimes present keep a grip on me and paralyze me from being a part of my own life. I want to leave my house without panic. I want to celebrate holidays without crying. I want to be there for my husband and show him that I can do this thing. So far, it only hurts, though.

 

[cntrymom08466]

To be happy, not numb most of the time from medication. I would like to get off a lot of the medication. I don't know if I can get off all of it, but most I hope. Not feel like I'm a fake and to just generally feel better about myself and be a happier person to be around instead of being angry all the time.

 

[meander]

So much in common.

 

[zaniara]

It was really though and extremely painful but I did it to become free to live. Not only survive. To not be controlled by trigger-avoiding, flashbacks and fighting dissociation and depression non stop.

I succeeded in gaining a life free from dissociation and flashbacks. I'm functioning. But I'm not sure I'm doing more than surviving.. (not in therapy anymore).

But I also wanted to become a "better", more healthy mum. And I think I am. For that I am very grateful.

I thought of another reason: I want to feel real.

Oh, I relate to that too.

 

[shatter eyes]

Want to live.
Be better person
Manage symptoms

 

[mumstheword]

To enjoy being out in the world again.

To feel good about myself.

To learn to feel valuable.

To feel safe, when I walk out my front.
door and/or walk down town.

To feel self confident and empowered.

 

[Deleted member 48076]

Trauma therapy is exhausting to say the least. But I'm doing it because I NEED to get better. I WANT to feel okay again.