Sexual Assault Trigger/replaying

[LucyLou]

I had a trigger come up a few days ago and since then, I keep replaying 2 of the r,*pes in my head. This is never going to go away, Is it? It's going to be something that will always be there. I have a therapy appt in the morning and this is what I should be bringing up but I don't really want to talk about it either (I know I'm not helping myself) I can't sleep

 

[arfie]

i damn near wiped out my entire memory function in the effort to make all those hideous memories go away. alas, the sacrifice resulted in a prison cell of my own devising where those hideous memories were all i had for company.

congratulations on the awareness that it isn't helping. awareness is the first step toward fixing the problem. steadying support while you decide what to do with the awareness.