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[MouseWedger]

Lizio,

I wish there was a way to get them back, and I wish even more that I could make myself say the words "She can have it" and believe that those things weren't important to me. I only want them because I hold onto some small hope that they will remind me of whatever it was that caused me to develop amnesia, however terrible it may be. Having lost more than half of your life is a devastating feeling, and I have been trying anything I could think of to get it back. Sadly this is my last chance, no one who knows the truth will tell me so it's up to my belongings and any diaries I may have kept as a child to tell me what I have forgotten. She has them and in turn my memories. I don't know if she realizes this is what is so important to me, probably not. She never believed my sister when she told our mother I couldn't remember twelve years. Devil lady told my mother in law on Saturday that she would call her to let her know when it was OK for me to come get my things. I told Alicia to tell the bitch to go to Hell. I figure since I was forced to live in it for twelve years, she should know what it was like.

Mouse

 

[Queen Boudica]

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[Lionheart]

I only want them because I hold onto some small hope that they will remind me of whatever it was that caused me to develop amnesia, however terrible it may be..... "so it's up to my belongings and any diaries I may have kept as a child to tell me what I have forgotten.

My father threw away all of my childhood belongings...even up to the age of 19 when I went into the service, he got rid of all of my things, my memories. During therapy, after detailing the abuse that I was able to remember, something triggered the floodgates of memory. They burst open and I began to recall things that had long been suppressed and forgotten. I then remembered more than I cared to and came to find that there were a total of 18 abuse perps in my childhood. The nice thing about uncovering these memories is that it not only allowed me to work through my trauma issues, but also brought back a lot of happy memories that had been lost as well.

I guess what I am saying is that you may be able to recover your lost memories without the aid of your childhood possessions. Still I am sorry that you seem to have lost them and I hope you get them back somehow!!!

 

[MouseWedger]

Thanks Lion. I do hope they come back too!