In my head, I know that even good stress is still stress. Sometimes, though I thought that I was/am "fine" after my PTSD from my gang rape/pregnancy/miscarriage.
I'm struggling to decide things. I feel so alone--because Stephen is so far away in Africa. I need to have everything planned before he comes in April because we are getting married in May. Sometimes, it just seems like a huge mountain. I wish we could just already be married. If I'm like this now--in January, what will I be like closer to the time?
I'm here in the USA staying at my parents' place who don't like/can't handle me talking about my trauma. They don't understand what has happened to me. On the outside, I look "fine", so according to them, I should be fine.
I don't even know why I'm posting this. Maybe just to vent
I'm struggling to decide things. I feel so alone--because Stephen is so far away in Africa. I need to have everything planned before he comes in April because we are getting married in May. Sometimes, it just seems like a huge mountain. I wish we could just already be married. If I'm like this now--in January, what will I be like closer to the time?
I'm here in the USA staying at my parents' place who don't like/can't handle me talking about my trauma. They don't understand what has happened to me. On the outside, I look "fine", so according to them, I should be fine.
I don't even know why I'm posting this. Maybe just to vent