Two Camera Lenses

[Fumole]

I had the strangest experience throughout my childhood. It was like my life had two different camera lenses that would switch back and forth. I wonder if this was early dissociation stuff? It doesn't happen now that I'm grown, but it happened all the time when I was quite young.

 

[Hovud]

Do you mean visually? As in there being a split in the view of the outside world. I what way did they switch? Where they ever there together and how did they differ/how did you know they were different?

I may relate a bit but need to know more!

 

[Fumole]

Yeah, visually, but also internally. How I viewed my house was completely different from one camera to the other. My sense of space and distance and colour and stuff was completely different.

 

[Ecuwo]

Were the cameras there at the same time or did they alternate and when/how?

 

[Fumole]

They would alternate. It could shift really quickly. My sense of place and perspective of the size of things would shift.

 

[Ecuwo]

Ah. Totally get that and I think it falls under derealisation. And I too have had it most of my life. Sometimes things are big and others small. Sometimes they look like they are viewed through a lens or a a tunnel. Sometimes colours change and there have even been times when it is like a strobe or separate photo like images scrolling past me. I think it can encompass many things.