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Undiagnosed Waking Up 25 Years Later

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brigidoe

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Hi everyone, I'm new here and just started getting therapy for the first time in my life as well. I was molested on one occasion as a child, and I didn't even realize It was abuse until recently because it didn't feel traumatizing at the time. I feel like I shouldn't be here because it wasn't that bad. And he wasn't a family member either. Also I have a great family and life. So on one hand I feel like what in the world am I doing here? haha.

Well I also have been a little messed up ever since. Absolutely terrified of totally unrelated things. Binge eating problems. Very uncomfortable in my body. Anxiety. And ever since I talked to the therapist for the first time recently I have been dissociating almost all the time (I think) . I Feel my head tingle and it gets very heavy and hard to stay awake all of a sudden and I feel very far away and numb.

I guess now that I've written it out it's easy to see that of course it would have some impact on me despite not feeling bad. But still I feel like I am intruding on a group of people who have so much more legitimate of problems than me.

Im just looking for something to do until my next therapy session. Once a week doesn't feel like enough.
 
One of the many beautiful things about this forum..we don't compare trauma.
The symptoms are the same and we have good times and bad times.
You are welcome here.
 
I'm sorry, it's so hard. I'm new here too. I wouldn't worry about whether you belong though - you suffer - period..
A week in between sessions seemed like too long to me at first too... it got easier for me to wait, especially as I concentrated on working on my "stuff" ...hopefully it will for you too. Welcome!
 
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