Mach123
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Well, I have to be really careful as I am abusive with people and feel abused by the simplest things. It comes in handy sometimes but in general people go away. I wanted to be in group or part of a community which I thought mistakenly was going to happen when I went to Van der Kolks place but it didn't. I have been driving into the city for therapy for years and I am still alone in between sessions except for what I do here online. I don't love what I'm doing online but it is at least a distraction for now. I can't deal with people. I have my spouse and with the children included we are sort of alone in the world. I have to interact with the support personnel who "help" with our Autistic daughters but honestly for the most part they make things harder. SO bottom line, I'd like to try a support group but I don't have the energy to try and start it myself and I'm not driving into the city at night and even if I did I am wondering now how long that'd last? I mean, what if there was someone difficult? (like us lol) IDK. My therapist runs these "weekend of recovery" things and I'm like "nah I'm good." lol. A men's group for sex abuse survivors? Let me get back to you on that. I just don't think I can do that. What other kind of group could it be? (Watch fight club lol) I met some people online who did a bunch of support groups. It didn't sound all soft and cuddly if you know what I mean? Lucky for me I have good health care. So mostly I talk to a therapist and doctors and they tend to be pretty helpful and not too difficult. : ) I go to the gym a lot and if I could keep quiet (steam room mostly) I'd never have to speak to anyone there. That works best for me. No news is good news.
