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I have suicide-related trauma. For the last year people have been making 'callouts' exposing a extremely popular user I know of. She's done a rather large collection of shitty things-as far as I can tell, nothing illegal-and has hurt people. For a year people have been on social media saying like don't interact with her, don't watch her content. Last week it escalated into things like they hate her, she's a bad person, she's a piece of shit, she's a dirtbag, her art's ugly, 'what the f*ck is wrong with her' for writing dark stories, nobody interact with her, if you interact with her they will block you, never let her come back without repercussions, and a 120 page document of every wrong thing she's ever done. It's escalated to the point where the other day I caught someone telling her fans to go die. I said that what this woman's done deserves criticism but that this has gone beyond criticism and has just turned into bullying.
I became convinced this would end in a suicide. And that I needed to stop it. By any means necessary. I told them to reign it in and that if they didn't stop the hate being thrown at her, it would be on them for not taking responsibility for what they do online if she can't handle it and kills herself.
They're now publicly saying I was 'suicide baiting' and guilttripping and 'halting accountability'. I'm out of the hypervigilance episode I was in all week and can now see all the ways this could pan out in which this woman doesn't kill herself, and feel ashamed of myself for overreacting. I sent them a message saying please take your post saying I was suicide-baiting you down because it is really affecting me to be publicly accused of manipulation for having a mental illness delusion.
I feel ashamed of myself. I don't know if I suicide-baited or not. I think what is happening to this woman is dangerous but I can't voice that anymore. It's been bringing back so much trauma and I've been melting down pretty much every day.
I became convinced this would end in a suicide. And that I needed to stop it. By any means necessary. I told them to reign it in and that if they didn't stop the hate being thrown at her, it would be on them for not taking responsibility for what they do online if she can't handle it and kills herself.
They're now publicly saying I was 'suicide baiting' and guilttripping and 'halting accountability'. I'm out of the hypervigilance episode I was in all week and can now see all the ways this could pan out in which this woman doesn't kill herself, and feel ashamed of myself for overreacting. I sent them a message saying please take your post saying I was suicide-baiting you down because it is really affecting me to be publicly accused of manipulation for having a mental illness delusion.
I feel ashamed of myself. I don't know if I suicide-baited or not. I think what is happening to this woman is dangerous but I can't voice that anymore. It's been bringing back so much trauma and I've been melting down pretty much every day.