Relationship We broke up

[dulcia]

I've had a hard time coming to the Supporter Relationship section recently, since I ended my relationship with my sufferer. I feel guilty and anxious, but I also feel free....

Free to laugh as loud as I want without having him shush me,
Free to talk to strangers without him getting mad at me for it,
Free to hang out with my guy friends without him being suspicious,
Free to go out for drinks without him getting drunk and yelling at me,
Free to be around my friends that are minorities without having to worry about him making racial or derogatory slurs,
Free to discuss politics and current events without being insulted,
Free to express my opinion on something controversial without being called names,
Free to be proud of my education without him belittling me for it,
Free to be proud of my heritage without him mocking it,
Free to have a disagreement without it getting physical,
Free to divulge my secrets without having them used against me,
Free to let him go for both of our sake.

I am free to be proud of who I am and realize my self worth, even when he wasn't able to. I only hope that he figures out how to realize his own self worth, too.

Good luck and I'm sorry.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Freedom to comfortably be ones self is the greatest gift ever. Learning we're the only ones who can genuinely present such a gift to ourselves and then acting on it....priceless. May you thrive in your new found freedom. Peace.

 

[grimalkin]

:hug:
Feels kind of weird, doesn't it? I almost feel guilty for being half relieved when my sufferer decided to end things. And now, 8 months later, I feel so much lighter. Free is definitely the right word.

Good luck, stay strong, and stay true to yourself.

 

[alice in wonderalnd]

I've had a hard time coming to the Supporter Relationship section recently, since I ended my relationshi...

I know it can be hard but you did the right thing for you..just keep these reasons close and when doubt raises its ugly head, read them over to remind yourself! !

 

[Sweetpea76]

@dulcia I am happy that you're finding yourself again. :hug:

 

[Sunshine0930]

I am happy you are finding yourself again! I am so tired after 3 years of living this roller coaster. I don’t think I can do it much longer.

 

[Snowflakes]

@dulcia I’m sorry I missed your thread when it first came out. Sunshine0930’s post yesterday moved it up for me to see. I am happy to read you are free and happy,

I do want you to know that you made a difference in my life. I came here shortly after you did so I followed your story along with others during my first few months. While I am still with my sufferer, you are part of that group here who taught me to find my own freedom and happiness within myself. This idea was born here with your help. Thank you and take care :hug:

 

[dulcia]

@Snowflakes, thank you! I am so happy to hear you have found your freedom and happiness, too :hug::hug:

 

[Della]

I've had a hard time coming to the Supporter Relationship section recently, since I ended my relationshi...

I understand sweetie, I had to let mine go too. Because in the end the only person that you have is yourself. You have to put yourself first sometimes to save your own sanity and to keep from having an nervous breakdown. Don't feel guilty about it. Some people manage to get on better grip on their PTSD and others never do honey. Best wishes to you.