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[Sazza]

Here I am moaning you must all be sick hearing me.

After today's appointment and upcoming meeting my mood is crashing thick and fast. My GP apointment is not till beginning next week as my Gp off rest this week. I know mentioned in other posts anxiety much better but tablets do nothing for depression that underlies. I can't believe how much I've sunk as day gone on it worries me. Just needed to rant share with someone.

Sazza

 

[Sazza]

Could a moderator please delete this post, should never posted it. Thanks would appreciate it if you could.

 

[ronin47]

Don't worry Sazza. That's what we are all here for, to listen to eachother b*tch and moan. I've vented on here plenty of times and make no apology for it. You shouldn't either. My mood has taken an abrupt turn for the worse recently as well. I'm inclined to think it's been influenced be the recent change in weather and how it's really starting to seem like winter. I know for some people depression really is a seasonal thing and in my case that is not the cause but it certainly doesn't help.

 

[Sazza]

Thanks ronin it's certainly not weather for me to, thanks for replying I get rather paranoid when been x amount views but no replies. Think be sticking to general chat in future rather than posting my own Threads makes me feel vulnerable, takes alot reach out but realise people aren't in
Good places themselves.

Thanks hope you turn a corner soon.

 

[mamachick]

Hi sazza, Your problems are just as important as anyones. I agree with ronin, we are all here to listen, have been there too myself.
Any idea why your mood is taking a dive? Sometimes I have a reason, other times I just dont know.
Im here to listen if you just want to vent. Hugs

 

[kimba]

Hi Sazza,
I'll be seeing my GP in a week and talking to him about the Citalopram (?sp) myself. I think I mentioned how the anxiety has lessened alot, but the depression is still there though not as "rock bottom" as it was. I was really hoping my first try med-wise would be my last, but after being on it since July, something needs tweaking.
I still can't get to sleep and awaken several times a night. Sometimes I can get back, sometimes I can't. My GP didn't want to prescribe anything so I've been alternating between Unisom, Excedrin PM and nothing so I am not "living" on one thing. I am tired enough to sleep, but can't. I don't want to up the current dosage of Citalopram because it is at 40 already and I don't want to be any more tired than I am. I don't want to lessen the dose because the anxiety will come back so... we will see what happens. Hang in there!

 

[Sazza]

Brat I think the dip may be burn out combined with thought of a meeting which could result in losing my job. Also my experience in A&e few weeks ago is playing me with intrusive thoughts about things that were said. Like you though I get alot crashes with no known reason.

Kimba I hope you get something sorted with the Citalopram, I came off mine and tried sertraline but went hell on that went back
Citalopram Only few week ago. Only on 20 at moment not sure want go up Anymore, I have admit I am Not having some problems had last time ad of yet. I was like you with sleep last time but If remember right I had that problem initially and it worsened I wasn't sleeping at all that got worse for me. This time my sleep isn't too bad I also haven't lost appetite like last time unfortunately as weight won't shift. Main problems for me are my mood I actually feel dead feel Numb everything is flat.I feel like zombie in Dissociative state constantly. I do feel tired all time and the worsening apathy had last time plaguing me just don't feel it's an existence. I am Having periods of not being able keep still but at those times my mood still Low and flat. My thoughts are slowed down but with that they are more intrusive. Happy enough on Citalopram anxiety wise but feel need something in
Addition to lift depression. Apparantly I'm Not depressed though so a professional told me as I spoke and smiled to a friend who visited me in Hospital. That one person saw me on one occassion to judge me that left me confused.

I think cause anxiety easing that the underlying depression is rearing it's head now.