Going back to school and failing all the courses, or the majority of them, like I have in the past. Therapist said she wasn't surprised by this, since I don't think I'm worth things turning out. She knows I'm sabotaging myself. She feels I should take one course, on line, just to prove to myself I can do it. She is right, there are a lot of things I want to prove to myself, not to anyone else. I feel like such a failure.