What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Philippa]

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Happy.

That almost feels wrong to post in a place like this, but it's true.

I really feel like I've faced everything head on this year and I've won. That's not to say I wont have setbacks and there wont be moments of relapse. But this year is going to go down in my own personal history book as nothing short of amazing. It wasn't fun and it was extremely hard.

But, I feel alive again.

Awesome.

I feel very relaxed, coming down from a 2 day binge of weed and beers and valium(;. It's not something I do regularly, but it's fun when I do let myself just get wasted.

I told my father I wasn't gonna see him when he came to my town to take me to dinner, with my brother. I wrote him an email saying I felt invalidated and negated from the last time we communicated, when he shut me down and told me that speaking openly and honestly with him about how I didn't like that he violated my private journals, apparently means I am "damaging the relationship"...funny, I thought that sneaking through peoples personal stuff and then twisting it around to blame the person who's journal you rifled through and then refused to speak with them about it, IS what damages the relationship!

Anyway, I had a relaxing time, and now I'm on my own again, and I feel ok right now.

 

[Philippa]

I feel relieved to be able to release stuff here on this forum amongst people who know what I'm talking about. I have had a few worries, but I'm also enjoying having the house to myself, while housemates are away. I had a long nap. I woke up feeling lazy and like I 'should' be doing more...but I know that's just societal pressure speaking.

My parents didn't call or contact me for xmas, even though I texted them both, so even though it's not the biggest deal, it felt a little funny not receiving any sort of call. It's the first time ever I think where I haven't spoken or texted my parents on xmas.

I feel clearer. I always seem to feel clearer in my head after a binge weekend of smoking weed and drinking...even though I don't really like either...sometmes it's just nice to get out of it and not worry about it.

 

[Froggie]

Very much alone and sad and grieving.

Need to chat ?

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Depressed
exhausted
Spent most of Christmas Day trying to do something wonderful for some people in dire need, and got thwarted and shot down, so in distress, too

 

[Froggie]

Hi DIH, know the feeling especially when the intentions are good. Sometimes others are feeling worst than us, or they are not socially adapted in relations. It's not always evident to take a distance to what happens and what we had intended. (((HUGS))) BTW, can I follow you ? Wanted to write a private note but nothing on you post to do so.

 

[deer_in_headlights]

((((((((((((Froggie))))))))))

Thank you for your encouraging words, dear Froggie!

While I still find the phrase "follow" disconcerting, and like the original term "friend": of course, Froggie - I would be honored to be your friend.. I might be offline, but please feel free to PM... ("Start a Conversation" from your profile page)

With warmest wishes,
Deer

 

[KP the nut]

I feel, ok, calm and relaxed. Christmas very quiet, me, husband, brother. Thought I be upset at children not being back but I have our get together next week to look forward to.
Today is a good day
KP

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Extremely angry at ex!

 

[bluerosa]

Sad that I spent Xmas alone in bed watching tv.
Disapointed in myself that I continue to be unable do basic tasks at home.
Afraid because my husband is coming home today and I am thinking he will be disapointed with me.
Confused that I still refuse to go out of the house.
Frustrated that I have to out next week and see my Dr. again, arggg, to renew a prescription....I am tired of talking to him.
Dissallusioned about my life and marriage.
Unhappy that I have no friends....well I do but I do not involve them in my life.

 

[Iam]

Tired from a wonderful Christmas! :)

 

[Philippa]

I'm feeling that there is mud a stirring. I just relayed a story to a person on the forum, in PM which triggered some yucky feelings in me. Apart from that, I'm fairly well rested, but sensing something's amiss??

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Feeling much calmer this evening. Initial anger from this morning burned itself out. Now I can think rational.