What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Britt.f7]

not sleep for twelve hours at a time

That's how I felt on Seroquel. I haven't slept as well being off of it but I'm also not knocked out for over 12 hours. Just crazy. Feast or famine.

 

[ms spock]

I slept 8 hours last night. There was a domestic to I went to bed a couple of hours after my bedtime, but I still did well. I didn't sleep in this morning. I found it hard to wake up but I managed it in 20 minutes rather than a couple of hours so I feel good about that. I am managing my routines and sticking to them as best as I can which is great.

 

[safenow]

Alone, unwanted,

Sugar, you are not alone nor unwanted. i too feel that way from time to time, but know that it is not true. Okay. Safe, gentle hugs if you allow them

 

[safenow]

What am I feeling today? Reflective.

 

[who am i kim]

Frustrated today. My PTSD - Complex is so hard to even figure out. I have disassociation and it is not helping me with mending the past. All I can say is there is two me's inside of me fighting against each other, and I am getting nowhere. I really can not do much for myself accept look after myself and wait until March when I see a new hopefully better T that can deal with complex PTSD.

 

[safenow]

Good luck, Kim. Waiting to see a new T can be frustrating. Might I suggest that you start to learn how to love the two you's inside? Treat them both like small children who haven't been treated very well before. That way you can start to nurture yourself at the same time. You'll be surprised how fast you will start to feel better, and those inside will settle down.

 

[who am i kim]

how to love the two you's inside?

How??

 

[safenow]

If you had a small child in your home that was always being put down, how would you treat them? Kindness, perhaps a coloring book and crayons. Perhaps some ice cream and quiet time, or even cartoons. maybe even a stuffie, like a bunny rabbit (floppy one), or a teddy bear. A soft, fuzzy blanket. Time away from all the adult stuff. Even adults need time away from all the adult stuff once in a while. Make an appointment with yourself. Then, don't allow anything or anyone to keep you from spending that hour. You are more important than anything else in the world during that hour. And stop thinking it's selfish, because it isn't.

Now before you say, that's kid stuff. I'm an adult. Let me tell you that the child inside will appreciate the attention. When you were little, was there one thing that made you feel really good? Do you know someone who you admire in the way they treat their children? If yes, ask them if they had a small, neglected child, what would they do to nurture it? Then apply that to yourself. If they ask you why, just say "I know of such a child, and I want to help them." It's the truth, isn't it?

 

[Philippa]

Blocked, like I am pressing down some feelings that need to come up. I smoked weed last night after work and now I just feel like sobbing, but it's really deep down and don't feel like it will come up. I also feel like smoking more weed, but am hesitant to. I feel a bit dizzy from the heat here.

 

[GreenFrog2]

Just to tired and so sad. I had a huge day at work yesterday and managed to pace myself through it pretty well. Got anxious as the day wore on and was kind and patient with myellf. But, by the time I got home was totally spaced out and took ages to get to sleep.

Now I am read to have a full blown panic attack, wishing that I could crawl under a rock and die because it is too much to deal with. I am wreaked and my self- help is only just keeping me going.

Feeling like I was so stupid for getting in touch with my family - what a dumb, idiotic, rash thing to do - am sure it is the stress from this that has pushed me over the edge, and I have not even heard back from any of them yet.

Oh well, I will just have to pace myself through today, and hope that I can cope with it all. Work a bit, rest, walk, meditate, hang onto my sanity........

 

[safenow]

GreenFrog2, If you allow it, I'm sending you a healing hug. If you don't like hugs, I'm sending you butterfly kisses on your cheek for being so valiant.

 

[wyrd_dragon]

I feel hopeless, depressed, helpless and fearful --mostly because of the following:

I feel bone-deep exhaustion (because it was a 40 degree Celsius day yesterday and I hate heat and sweat and gah blergh argh loathe so I slept badly again despite sleeping pills which just make me woozy)

I feel overwhelming physical pain (the above made my Fibro pain horrific, and this plus exhaustion means doing anything at all is almost impossible)

I have my Pagan group of friends meeting at my house tonight, including my two friends that are here with two children, my husband who is dealing with depression and arthritis and can't deal with me not doing well, my girlfriend who has ptsd and isn't coping, her partner who is dealing with depression and is horribly shy, and a friend of a friend who I've never met (!!!). I'm supposed to be sewing costumes today for a fairy parade on Sunday (for four people), and there are going to be people at my house for four days. I'm the one who organizes, who talks to people, who draws people out and looks after people, and if I don't cope everyone freaks out. Oh, and money is tight, and I run the budget.

*head in hands*