What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[franciemarnie]

I feel utterly exhausted physically, emotionally, mentally. When I feel like that I go back into wanting to give up mode. Like the twisted rubber band that's been on the floor of the attic for 30 years. I got untwisted from much effort over time, then I temporarily burn out and I go back into the twisted position I was in for decades. So damn tired.

But I know this is temporary. I need to restore but it's so hard when sleep is so difficult to come by. I've been here before though. Luckily I've always gotten out so I don't act on the bad feelings. They aren't facts.

@Hope4Now - I love Anne Lamott's Bird By Bird I think it was called.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

We had a blast last night and celebrated big time. I am feeling pretty good today because I accomplished so much around here. I am slowly recovering from the mental and physical and spiritual exhaustion of taking care of my husband. Still not where I want to be but doing baby steps.

 

[macca]

I woke up feeling ok today. Ok as in "normal" ok, not PTSD ok. It lasted an hour, during which time I got progressively more nervous at feeling "normal", wanting to hang on to it and knowing that the slightest thing might make it fly away. I think I've sabotaged myself, as I'm not feeling as good as I was.

WTH - why feel scared of feeling ok! What's with that! GRRR

 

[roaminggnome]

I feel exhausted, tired, and spent. I've been up since early this morning and am in desperate need of some sleep. So much is going through my mind. I am thinking too much trying to figure out a way out of my lack of medical insurance. It's a nightmare dealing with the local Medicaid office. I'm just so tired.

 

[ninja]

Sort of like my car keys.

Very much! Almost feels like a game of hide and go seek.

Hugs to all. :hug:

 

[Hope4Now]

I have just had the weirdest experience about which I am feeling VERY conflicted. Went to a dinner with our org's Board of Trustees. At the cocktail hour I ended up talking with a Board member who I also sort of know socially and who went to the same college I did (a long time ago). I don't know how it happened but I ended up telling her that I have PTSD. She then told me that she was raped in her dorm as a college freshman, finally told someone when she was a senior, and was in therapy for two years for PTSD.

I'm feeling very nervous about the fact that I shared this about myself, mystified about what the h made me do this, and stunned that it turned out that she gets it and was sympathetic and actually shared her own experience. And all this in the midst of a cocktail hour with professional colleagues. Life is very very strange.

 

[ms spock]

Stressed and anxious.

 

[franciemarnie]

Ow. My jaw. Within three minutes I went from relaxed to total jaw tension pain. Unbelievable. It's going now.

Tired.

Hopeful. (Energy healing tomorrow.)

 

[franciemarnie]

@Hope4Now - I can imagine it would feel strange the unexpected conversation you had. But my first reaction was - oh my gosh, I bet she really helped that lady by sharing, and evidently giving her the freedom to say what happened to her. It shouldn't be a shameful thing kept under wraps in the world. I understand why it is so often secret, but I just think that was great.

 

[fly away home]

Like an empty void

 

[Philippa]

Feeling burnt out and a bit frantic. My monthly bleeding time is due and I need a holiday from work. I'm over it. Confusion and feel like crying. Anxious and not sure why? Curious to know.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling very stressed.