What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[intothelight]

Getting my feet back under me and feeling a little more confident about being able to make some progress. Fear is always ever present and trying to learn how to face it without going into full fight mode and putting the things that I am afraid of into perspective. I am trying not to gravitate to the "worst" outcome.

 

[Britt.f7]

Not sure what I am feeling. Not bad, but not totally good either. I have to pick myself up.

 

[violetclouds]

Interesting thing - the question "How are you feeling?" has taken on a whole new meaning since PTSD came to live with me. I have trouble knowing the answer to it often. Today - morning was very bad - and almost went into a panic attack. Now I feel very down - just want to lie in bed an hide. I also feel kind of pathetic because the situations this morning should have been well within the 'usual' things of life and I should have been able to handle them . I feel like I failed. I feel like I failed my daughter, myself and my husband. The usual.

 

[Spiderallis]

Mostly I feel confused. Had a misunderstanding and disagreement with my sweetie, he had to tell me that I'm allowed to be mad because he was being irrational. I don't know how to do that, anger turns into headaches before I notice it as an emotion. The headache is gone, but now I feel worse. He felt bad about it, then he had to explain how these things work when people don't repress all their anger and blame themselves when other peoples' unreasonable expectations don't work out perfectly. Depressed, anxious, sleep-deprived but still grateful that I've got him as a tutor for my 'how to be a human' lessons.

 

[Anrish]

Deadly tired. I just had two hours of sleep last night and drove more than 300 km....most of it in the darkness. I don't know how I survived a ten hours work day with chronical head ache....

...and now, I'm feeling totally nervous! I posted a contact ad in a magazine for people interested in mountains and hiking...and I got responses!!! .... :bag:

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm exhausted. I don't know if I've ever been this exhausted. I'm physically mentally and emotionally exhausted. I got 3 hours of sleep last night. I went to therapy this morning came home had coffee and dozed a little bit.

I know I'm tired from only getting 3 hours of sleep but I think I'm tired from therapy too. It seems like therapy has been making me so tired lately. But therapy has been good lately. My therapist and I started processing my traumas.It's been really hard but it's also been good and it's been productive. I can feel it that I'm working really hard. And now I'm tired and I've spent the afternoon falling asleep. I guess this is part of how healing works.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am so happy that I had the surgery and I have hope for the first time in a week and I will be going for a new adjustment on Wednesday,had one the morning. I feel so hopeful for healing in a more managed way now. I am very glad I did this for myself. I feel really wonderful about that.

 

[notsurewheretoturn]

Sort of numb. Still reeling from the business having to move.

Still trying to sort out somewhere to live when my lease expires.

Had to see the local housing authority today to see if I can get social housing so I had to go through all the medical questions. When I mentioned the PTSD she asked me in a really cheery voice, "oh how did you get that then?" So I had to go through all the things I'm desperately trying not to think about after I'd only had about an hours sleep. Really wish they'd train their staff on how to deal with PTSD.

 

[afuneralinmybrain]

A strange mixture of hopelessness and cheerfulness. Scared. Existential but very real fear.

 

[Barberian]

betrayed

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am having a wonderful mellow day in spite of the great mouth pain. My spirits are lifted and I feel so very good.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Feeling courageous and happy! All negative comments from co-workers and those superiors posturing for dominance, rolled down my back. I mean, I am really learning to let stuff go! :bag: (shh, might jinx myself)