What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Deleted member 12723]

@Saelben I am glad for you.:hug:

 

[VioletButterfly]

I'm feeling kind of tired and mentally blurry, but better. Like I'll be able to go to the store I hope. I just wish I could feel like I used to - I think it was kind of normal compared to how I've been feeling for the past 2 years or so. I hope that makes sense.

 

[VioletButterfly]

I'm getting ready to try to leave my apartment to go to the store and happened to glance at my bookshelf. There is a book I'd like to share, or maybe it's my little one that wants to share. It seems to sum up one aspect of how I/she feel every day that I/she have to deal/live with CPTSD. Please make allowances as it was written for children, but I think you will see how the thought patterns seem to relate to how our minds work often times when in this mode - at least to me. It's entitled Too Purply and the author is Jean Reidy. I'm hoping for the day I can get close to how the main character feels on the last page of the book. Just a thought or maybe a dream. VB (and little VB)

 

[Spiderallis]

I'm down and sad, attended a memorial service for my dad's cousin today. It involved a lot of shrugs about "how are you holding up?" because I know they mean well in reminding me that I was already grieving about dad when his cousin passed. Empathy is off the charts for extended family, it's bonds I don't know firsthand like siblings or my great aunt that visited two of her nephews in different hospitals.

 

[Lionheart]

relieved, scared, but going to be fine...I have faith that things will turn out okay although things are up in the air right now...soon the dust will settle and I will find a new home....determined,, and hopeful

 

[Leisel]

I feel tired, uncomfortable, lonely, sad, cautious, anxious, unlovable, and disappointed in myself.

 

[Glo809]

Greetings
Got two books in the mail today.

When the laughter dies and Bulletproof spirit.

Looking forward to reading them as a real book, I since I drive for a living, I rely on audio books for my needs.

G

 

[Glo809]

Greetings
About ten yars ago I decided to stop a personal trait of mine, and I was successful at it.

Well about two months ago when life decided that I had buried my head in the sand long enough and jerked me back into my true reality, looking back I should of known this because I did something.

You see I'm a bridge burner, I can end any type of relationship and never back up, and could care less about the other.

My philosophy is... never back up, keep going forward.

When I got jerked back into reality, I got a text from a friend of mine that was having a bad day and said I was partly at fault for this..... well my burning skills are as good as ever...

I saw that person today and never said a word, she had tried to apologize in the past, silence from me.

So how am I feeling, fine, the old cone of isolation still fits fine, kinda like coming home.

I know therapy will address this as I am just starting down this road but chances are a burned bridge is forever, because I'm good at it.

G

 

[trying2movefwd]

CALM!!!!!!!!!!!! *how exciting*. :) sheds a tear of joy as it's been so long.

 

[trying2movefwd]

Nope but it's not bad. Calm maybe? :)

 

[Lionheart]

Been in need of the kindness of others and feel blessed that my creator is taking care of me through the good hearts of other people!!!!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am a mixed bag today. I feel calm yet anxious, I feel positive, yet sad. Go figure.:cautious: