What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Survivor3]

I feel betrayed and abused and humiliated. There are some people in my life that are helping me which I'm grateful for but I feel devastated about my past and certain people.

 

[Tinyflame]

But that's a good way to put it, isn't it @Survivor3 , no? - 'I am grateful people in my life are helping me feel less devastated by my past and certain people who led me to feel betrayed, used and humiliated'.

(Me too then, I could- should- say. :hug: )
That was 'then', this is more 'now'.

 

[Tinyflame]

Ps @Survivor3 , I wanted to come back to say, because I was rushing too much I realize the above could sound insensitive- I didn't mean it to reflect your feelings aren't valid, or to minimize. I am sorry if it came across that way, I apologize if it did as it wasn't intended. :(

 

[blackemerald1]

I'm heading into sad... and I want to put the brakes on.. :(

 

[Survivor3]

I'm heading into sad... and I want to put the brakes on.. :(

thank you for supporting me @blackemerald1.

 

[Lionheart]

Grief, sorrow, pain, and anguish.

 

[Rani G2]

Grief, homesickness, Anger,

 

[NatBird]

warmth

acceptance

kindness

creative

 

[Abstract]

fuuuuurious with myself about my procrastination. Frustration. Fear.

 

[Ruthb]

fuuuuurious with myself about my procrastination. Frustration. Fear.

like you i feel the same.I feel weak and angry with myself.Where's my inner strength.

 

[Tinyflame]

@Abstract @Ruthb , I learned one cause of procrastination is an underlying fight-or-flight feeling, believe it or not. There were 2 more, I'll try to find out what they were.

Relieved, because I was afraid I would screw up something which was quite costly ($), and that would impact on not just myself. It would be different if it didn't matter- the cost, or if it wasn't a concern, but it was a big concern, and there were other places it could have gone. So I am very, very grateful it was ok. :notworthy:

It's funny, I'm shocked I have any marbles left, and it was fun to 'learn' again- if I had unlimited funds, oh, the things I would do, and study! But then I also think- I am very grateful, too, for a different lifestyle/ opportunity, that in another way has more freedom, more flexibility, and more physical activity, though it involves a more unpredictable environment and problem-solving on the fly. But, I feel grateful in many respects for some things, in retrospect, that I never realized before, in general, of where I am now, compared to where I was many years ago.

I felt sad reading about something that reminded me of my mom. But I also remembered, one of her surgeons- there were a team of 30 at one surgery- a young guy afterwards said, "What a woman!" She was awake during it, probably a spinal anesthetic, and remembered most of the convo. She died on the table but 30 minutes became 5 1/2 hours and she made it. But reading about the particulars of what it involved, I have a pretty good idea, along with her-being-her, why he said it. Funny thing was, he was wearing the same medal as her's- never seen it before or after- and a big guy/ like a football player; it's a delicate medal. She noticed it, and he had noticed hers, and they had compared, - sure enough!. It had gone down the drain that a.m. at home and I got it out with the vacuum.

 

[NatBird]

earlier -- tired, sadness, anger

now -- content, gratitude