What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

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Go you, Amethist!!!

I'm feeling hopeful about the future.
I'm worried I'm going to outgrow my hunny. :(
I'm feeling determined to stay awake all day even though I haven't slept to fix my sleep schedule.
I'm a little hungry.
I'm feeling motivated to make changes. Can't I just take one day, work REALLY SUPER HARD and have everything fixed?
I'm curious about my future - wondering where it'll take me.

 

[AngelaMarie]

Reclusive,
You sound positive! Good for you!!!:tup:

 

[Reclusive]

Thank you, AngelaMarie - I guess I do. I kind of had a really awful day but it's forcing me to face a lot of things about myself and my future. I dunno, it's weird, but I'm going with it. :D

 

[jasmin]

OKAY time to listen to body..

I.. feel..
An ache in my upper spine near my neck.. ooh actually it's quite painful.. aaaaaaw now it's going down my spine. Ow now it's at my hip.. I'm sitting on a really weird angle.. okay re-position oneself.
Just cracked neck about 20 times.. easy as pie. and another 5 times..
Feet are ice. Stockings are tight. Fingertips are cold. Lips are dry. Teeth are kinda fury. Sinuses are clear. Tongue is slightly burnt from the tea I had earlier. Crack knuckles. Straighten spine.. oooh there goes that shooting pain again. Eyes are somewhat heavy. I am tired. I will rest. It is bedtime anyway.

 

[Queen Boudica]

Tired
Tired of all the shit that happened to me and still happens
Tired of thinking of that shit
Tired of trying to link the shit all together to find out why I am like I am
Tired of trying to make myself perfect
Tired of not being able to cope.
Tired of trying to find ways how to cope
Tired of relying on other people to help me who let me down
Tired of worrying about every little thing
Tired of finding it so hard to make friends
Tired of not having real friends, just pseudo ones.
Tired of my pseudo friends who are nice enough to me one to one, but would rather chat to each other and exclude me when they get together.
Tired of always feeling on the outside
Tired of not being exuberant and funny and interesting so people like me
Tired of not having something interesting to say
Tired of feeling too scared to go up to people and talk because I am such a blob
Tired of trying so hard but mostly failing
Tired of trying too hard
Tired of not being able to make decisions
Tired of not knowing whether I am right or wrong
Tired of always doubting myself
Tired of having to make appointments and never knowing when to make them
Tired of dealing with incompetent specialists
Tired of stupid teachers
Tired of dealing with specialists and teachers who say they get what I am telling them but obviously don’t
Tired of kids doing homework when they should be playing
Tired of people underestimating me
Tired of me underestimating me
Tired of people thinking I am stuck up
Tired of being fat
Tired of the people I trusted letting me down and treating me like shit
Tired of trying to justify their shit behaviour
Tired of their excuses
Tired of them not accepting that they behaved like shit
Tired of their blaming me
Tired of me blaming me
Tired of trying to forgive
Tired of them trying to be nice now but still not getting it
Tired of thinking that the niceness won’t last
Tired of not having anyone to trust
Tired of thinking I will never have anyone to trust
Tired of not having anyone I can really tell my deepest thoughts to
Tired of being afraid
Tired of being sad
Tired of feeling sorry for myself
Tired of crying and not knowing why
Tired of crying and knowing why
Tired of being Me
I want to become the me I dreamed of becoming when I was a child

 

[KP the nut]

I should be really tired, lots of vile, evil nightmares. Actually I feel OK. I've got my a**e into gear and have done two volunteer car drives to help others.

I feel pain as always but I also feel at peace.

I feel in control. I started an anxiety attack whilst waiting in the hospital, trolleys, nurses, doctors etc and I knew it was coming and I controlled it.

 

[Reclusive]

I'm feeling frustrated and angry. The pharmacy line is tied up and my fiance let himself run out of meds.
I'm also feeling moody.
I'm feeling depressed.
I'm tired.
I feel crushed as if by some huge weight.

 

[KP the nut]

Another group hug

 

[Iam]

Heartbroken
a failure
exhausted
frustrated
angry
devestated
like giving up

 

[KP the nut]

(((Iam))) Don't give up, stay with us.

Candles burning

 

[Ron]

((((((( Iam ))))))))

 

[AngelaMarie]

((((I am))) Along with KP and Ron I wish you the best and much strength.