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I suppose I realize that in the eyes/ mind/ heart of those closest to me irl, and society at large, I have little to no value. Which makes me feel, Idk, -empty.
Feel sorta similar @Junebug keep flashbacking to when I was a kid and there was no one I could turn to, not even for a kind word let alone anything more.
And come out of the flashbacks to a life where I've no one I can turn to. Makes me sob like a baby.
It would be great if I could figure out how to make friends & then I would only be friendless & devastated when I flashback.
Oughtta be possible hey.
Anyways, in the meantime, I'm sorry for your emptiness, and my tears, and wish you well :hug:
Thank you @berlinda , and I understand. :hug: :hug: :hug:
I should have said 'family', really, but then I think, well, what of it, what does it matter.
But yes, puts a damper on connection or the safety of it, of all kinds. And not to say someone else is responsible for my lack of value. But that believes they are right. Are they? Who knows? :rolleyes: :(
I felt digusted, disappointed, frustratiin unloveable and hopeless rising
Then I felt some fight, strength, kindness, worth something
Then I felt content, connection, gratitude
1. Worried- the dog headed to the vet tomorrow. :( :cry:
2. Grateful for good boss, sorry she wants to quit. So do I.
3. Grateful my sister filed a necessary police report, who recommended if necessary she calls 911 next.
4. Shocked but laughing that the grapevine said I've quit and gone to work for the competition in an unrelated field (I should wish)! Comes from their own guilty consciences, not mine, I've bent over backward right up to tuesday morning.
5. Very sad my friend I'll see tomorrow got diagnosed with very early onset dementia. :( :cry:
6. Thankful for friend's safe delivery of 1st grandchild. :)