What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Ronin]

"If you are so smart, why do you do what you do?

Because you are not only smart, but also not spinelacking vile worms like them, & cheers.

 

[Tinyflame]

@Ronin :hug:

Words+lies=BS. =Triggering.

Far, far away.

 

[Tinyflame]

Tired of begging for help, tired of stress, tired of fear, and worry, tired of platitudes, of bullsh*tters, and backstabbbers, and liars, tired of broken minds, broken bodies, broken promises, tired of being broken. Tired of struggling. Just plain tired of it all. Tired of living, breathing, struggling, ignoring, surviving.

 

[Lionheart]

Frustrated (with my new psychiatrist who barely speaks good English, recommends prayer for my travel anxiety, and when told that Vistaril does not work for me, prescribes the pill form instead of the capsule form). Feeling somewhat defeated, but determined to find relief from panic and anxiety anyway.

Other than that I am feeling pretty good. I lost approximately 23 lbs. (over several months) and marked 11 weeks as a non-smoker on Wednesday. :)

 

[ChildofGod]

Defeatedly tired. Need to reboot somehow.

 

[ladee]

Feeling relieved that I have done what was necessary to get someone out of my life.

 

[Lionheart]

I feel sad in my heart for the losses I have suffered over the past 6 years or so. I've lost my mom, dad, and my sister as well as losing touch with my baby brother. My daughter and my niece are not able to visit me with me right now, not until later this year or first of next and they are the last remaining members of my family.

I am also surprised and saddened by the limitations that aging has brought to my door. Me with my long white beard, walking cane in hand, struggling just to walk to the corner store. I am no longer driving, walking is quite the challenge, (loss of independence, etc., ) I am feeling quite lonely and unwanted. Plus the loss of longtime friendships that turned toxic has left me feeling all alone as well.

I just read where yesterday in my diary I said that my depression is mild..., now, I understand that I tend to downplay my troubles and that I am rather depressed after all.

 

[Tinyflame]

Inadequate.
I do not see myself as some other(s) chose to say they see me.
Broken and damaged goods. In reality.
Unsure of most everything.

 

[Tinyflame]

I am really thankful I am off in 2 days.
I think it's high time I got engaged / stop being unattached to my emotions/ life. Because life has become a terror.
Or maybe I have to realize/ trust in what is safe? Idk (pesky, painful emotions). :(
I think it's important to be grateful. Especially if I can't not be vulnerable/ protect or defend myself. Maybe that's where un-safety comes from(feels like)?
Ugh, can't find words. This is how I 'feel' (not 'think').

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

(((Gentle Hugs))) @Junebug , and everyone else whose heart could use one.

Feeling all the feels today. Some in small doses, others are like tsunamis. My juggling/coping skills could use some tweaking.

 

[ChildofGod]

I feel awful and terrible. It takes so much energy to be me, and I don't have much energy at the moment. Hoping tomorrow is a big improvement.

 

[Lionheart]

I feel confident, relaxed, and as light-hearted as someone who is also grieving can be. (which is more than I had ever imagined).