I feel scared. I've had intrusive thoughts all day and we've got a new covid strain in the uk. Practically the whole country is in lockdown. The different countries aren't letting transport through the ports. It's f*cking scary.
I am excited about the possibility of buying myself a Christmas present if it doesn't sell out before I get to it. I have to wait till tomorrow to cash a check... anyway, it is possible that I will be purchasing an authentic Cherokee peace pipe, for myself. But I am also feeling trepidation because none of my family will be here for Christmas. They have passed on and I will be spending a lot of the next two days alone. So I am beginning to get very sad and tired. However, I am trying not to ruin others' holidays.