Sending you love and understanding @Teasel. Grief is hard work isn't it. And it hurts. We just have to keep telling ourselves that this is healing and it won't last forever. Sending hugs to you because I understand.
I don’t know if I think about how I feel or how I feel about what I think, meaning which is predominant. I was told my feelings are in my body and I’m not in touch with my feelings I’m “in my head”. That was a long time ago in therapy, and I still am not sure I know what any of it means.
My world seems much smaller, darker, and lonelier than it ever has before. I feel I have been abandoned, but that is actually a thought and not a feeling, so I guess the feeling is one of being lost and alone. Still, I am grateful for my friends and loved ones and for the meaning I have found in my life.