What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[fin]

I am feelin the magic

I feel less to no resentment also, I think I have maybe finally let this one go. I also am feeling proud of myself, that I have maybe finally relaised that I had resentment, but its going or gone so I am feeling pretty good about it.

While I know that I am human and the reality of it all, life that magic also...well while I know, I also feel more compassion and strength. Than I have maybe ever done before, and this is good to find again. I know I am flawed, hell we all are!! but I also know I am maybe stronger than I have ever been given real credit for. I hope tha this will continue to grow inside me... I know I feel far less manic than I did when I came here. And that is a good sign.

I am laughing and smiling at seeing the link for fun..psst come here maybe??
I forgot that I could be fun...it is perhaps a good thing for me to acknowledge -perhaps better, I have fun stuff still inside of me.

Im laughing also because I feel funny, and I know thats not maybe sounding fun or anything...just have to know me I guess..because it is a good funny.

am smiling, have to go and get on ...exposure to get done and more besides me now, get doing huh?
*laughs...maybe still with that crzzzy cackle hah!!!

maybe I can love me, who know??? one day perhaps...yikes!! and maybe a little yuck also...what am I like huh???


ok so I am posting now and no editing wow!!! thats a step also (OMG) I just read that back!!!! wtf!!! seriously O M G...hah am going to stirring lyrics...thinking OMD now too hah!! lol betcha didnt think that was coming (actually maybe you did...I dont even know who OMD are really )...ok so I am now rambling wayyyt o o much.

 

[red shoes]

I feel very, very sad. Sad for myself that I can't be stronger, sad for my youngest son and the pain I see ahead for him because of choices he has made. Sad for my own broken dreams I had for him as a parent.

I feel so alone in my PTSD world.

I feel very angry at my emotionally fragile daughter for using me as a dumping ground for her problems and really, really angry at her for ruining my fun evening with my oldest son and his fiancee by turning it into a counseling session.

I am afraid of what I might say to my daughter because I am so angry.

I am scared that I will spend the rest of my life feeling alone and helpless.

I am soooo tired of feeling overwhelmed by my emotions.

 

[supergirl]

I feel aggravated, stressed out, cranky, and at the end of my rope. Family issues are making me crazy! And my dog is sick. Ugh

 

[cragger65]

I feel disappointed in myself, busy mind, keeping me busy not getting caught up in getting down on myself. Some regret. Hot here today.

 

[supergirl]

tonight i feel pretty good --- woke up early and had a productive day and then went to see Britney Spears. She was okay but I had fun! :smile:

 

[pianogirl]

I feel aggravated, startled, defeated, and tired.
(But at least the weather was still nice today!)

pianogirl

 

[fin]

yesterday I felt a lot of things, I think I am in a better place today to be able to acknowledge what they were and are so I am going to try again.



Sorry there was soo much of it again, it has had to go to my diary, as I just felt a little that it was taking over the thread or rather that I was taking over the thread.. But this is one hell of a thread.

~fin

 

[Mina]

Enraged. Is that a feeling? Probably more a symptom of a feeling, which I have yet to identify. It may take a while to figure that one out, as I just bent a piece of rebar hitting my heavy bag with it. I didn't know that stuff bent that easily...I think I'm pretty f'in angry about something. At least I did as T and I discussed and used something besides my knuckles this time.

 

[Tinyflame]

Hi Mina, good for you to get it out. That's excellent, actually. I know you will be able to figure it out.
:Hug_emoticon:

 

[fin]

tired and disappointed
but also feel like I broke through some kind of pain barrier, so.. I dont know a word for this feeling

very alert today mentally very alert, so high maybe or hyper or something very aware and very alert,

I felt humourous at one point and then humoured and then... like I had broken it... pain. I felt ambushed and triggered, exposed and alarmed, I coped-kind of... I felt confident and cocky and then not soo nice afterall, I think I like it when it said I was a diamond in the rough more

I went out though today in the midst of it all before it got rough so... I know I done good on that bit, and I did good ...that feels pretty great to me now... I wish I could have hung on to that feeling a little longer but no one made me come back and exposure therapy is what it is and it works.... it soo works.

tired and lonely now, frustrated at the mistakes actually no... I did what I did with what I know and the tools I had at the time... so a little confused and still a little angry too so acceptance of my own limitations andstupidity

 

[liv now]

I am in unfamiliar territory with what I have been feeling. I think I feel excitement. My body feels alive and alert and I have butterflies in my stomach. interesting though because I feel similar feelings when I am scared, but today it is a postive thing not fear based.

 

[Let It Be]

Today, I am feeling very sad. I was able to tell someone that I have "inner peace" about my mother. It felt good to tell someone without being judged, but then also my heart is hurting.

My heart is hurting as I am feeling so alone, have always been, but now it is more than I can handle. All alone in this town.

I was asked today if I was from here...usual questions...but how could I answer them without telling my story...so sad and angry at the moment.