What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[AngelKeeperJ]

I feel numb. My rear-end cuz I spent the day at the hospital on the less than comfortable chairs. I took my mother in this morning. Nothing serious. She's pulled some muscles and can't get around and is a huge fall risk. They will do a Physical Therapy consultation to help us figure out how to help her move. She is overweight, and has arthritis and fibromyalgia, just like me. Or, I'm like her. Ewwwwww, I despise my mother...

THIS will help me keep my weight down...gotta work on that. Seeing what I could become is more scary than I can admit.

Yes, I feel numb. DON'T want to think about the future. Going back to hospital with mom's c-pap machine then home, bed and back tomorrow.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel so tired and drained. Yesterday was a long day, the interview, a full council meeting last night, then I went to chat and became part of a horrid debate. I had nightmares and didn't sleep well.

Today I have a headache, neck and shoulder pain. I have to go to work for an hour. Then dental surgery this afternoon (yuck) all rounded off by a meeting tonight. I've already said I won't be staying late.

I will rest today as and when I can.

 

[Srain]

I have therapy today

How did the therapy go Gigi?

I feel some depression mostly from months of not feeling well and the dregs of my therapy appt yesterday. I sometimes honestly feel it would be best if I left and found a small dig for myself and Big Girl and freed my husband from these shackles. I mainly feel this when I see I cannot contribute even a decent little job. I am incapable at this time to do that and it terrifies me to be such a waste of space in his life. My mind is churning at a frightening pace or stops and lulls into nowhere land. dammit :(

 

[gigi2690]

How did the therapy go Gigi?

Therapy was productive; my therapist things that I'm so good at self-analysis that she wants me to participate in a study. As a sociology major I am trained in analysis... but I use it to such an extreme on myself because it's so hard to figure out what I feel or what I want.

I also migrained, so that was tiring. It just ended a few hours ago. I know what it's like to feel like a waste of space. I cannot tell anyone I'll be somewhere and be sure I will. I cannot get a steady job... my ptsd and migraines incapacitate me so frequently. It's so hard to find any steady ground to stand on.

 

[KP the nut]

I am surviving. I feel better as the pain meds kick in and do their job. I have a heat pad on my neck which will give comfort for the rest of the day.

I feel good that I made the effort and didn't have a duvet day.

 

[Sandra]

I'm kind if anxious today. The new housekeeper starts today. She sounds nice though. Hopefully she will more dependable then the last one.

 

[Shattered]

unmotivated and rather flat

 

[intothelight]

....... it terrifies me to be such a waste of space in his life.

(((Rain))),

You are not a waste of space. I am sure your H does not see you that way. It is hard, but each of us needs to find value in "who we are" and not "what we do". I always try to remember, I am a human-being, not a human-doing.

Deb

PS: My friend you are very valued here with your uplifting support for so many of us. :)

 

[intothelight]

Mixed emotions....but to be expected and I am OK with them. At least I am feeling again.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Discouraged at my progress cleaning...frustrated I can't push myself. Hate the loneliness of my home. Struggling right now.

 

[BlueKitty]

(((( Pottershand ))))) and ((( Shattered))))
I am on a twin boat, discouraged at life, frustrated at my lacking self-control at important times, and can't push myself harder to reach higher.
I am definitely struggling.

But.. I Got to get somewhere, can't accept this.
I will start by doing one right thing at a time!!

 

[Sazza]

I am feeling a little scared tonight, I have been avoiding thinking about the consequences of my actions but am beginning to face up and it feels scary that I've been quite reckless.