What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[goingonhope]

Feeling alright, I'm even feeling happy. Which feels :cool:

The only obstacle for the time being, between happiness and I continuing throughout this day, seems to be an overload of responsibilities and work. :tdown: Ah' shucks! :rolleyes:

 

[bittersweet]

(((((((Stormy Eagle)))))))
Don't be sad. We are all here. You are not stupid either. Someone as strong as you cannot be stupid.

(((((((((((everyone who needs a hug))))))))))))

 

[wife of]

I seem to have found a wee spark of xmas excitement,no idea where it came from,but it's there..

 

[Stormy Eagle]

A** kicking depression...lethergy

 

[CaringMomma]

I'm feeling defeated, sad, scared, alone.:cry:

 

[Marie E.]

*Hugs* Hope everyone gets to feeling better!! I know I need it! :)

 

[Marie E.]

I am feeling guilty but also very damn happy and relieved!! I don't want to be judged here, so I am not going to write it.

 

[Marie E.]

I'm feeling nervous and don't want to go to sleep early. I agreed to see my room mate tomorrow in court since last week, but why do I have to be a witness?? God forbid I didn't hear the conversation my b/f (1) had in Bosnian over the phone. But b/f said that he translated to English after the phone call. I remember that, but what is the judge to think?

Well, I was not the one arrested and I never have been. I'm on probation, that is as far as I have been. Off on Jan 12th. So, more or less, why should I feel guilty? Well, even if I choose not to feel guilty, I still have the 5 minutes or so of fame on the stand. Maybe I'm kinda frightened cause court is a trigger to me. Though it is a very familiar place!

 

[Saphy]

Took a really big step yesterday and followed through today. I'm on medication now for the PTSD... I was conflicted about it at first, but I guess I definitely needed it. I decided to go to a T closer to where I am and had looked up online about his reviews... people said that he's generally very restricted with medication so it'll be more like therapy. But after less than 10 minutes, he was convinced and started talking about medication. So maybe... things were worse than I thought they were. I'm on my second dose for the week and I can't say it's terrible or overwhelmingly helpful. But I did notice I wasn't so stressed out about a deadline and worked efficiently. I also had minimal flashbacks and dissociations. Felt like my head was sorta clear for once... reaching out for things now instead of curling onto itself in fear and anxiety.

So today, I am feeling proud of making such a big decision on my own.

 

[Saphy]

I'm feeling nervous...Well, I was not the one arrested and I never have been. I'm on probation, that is as far as I have been. Off on Jan 12th. So, more or less, why should I feel guilty? Well, even if I choose not to feel guilty, I still have the 5 minutes or so of fame on the stand. Maybe I'm kinda frightened cause court is a trigger to me. Though it is a very familiar place!

I hope things go well at the court. I know what you mean about this. Recently some of my friends got in trouble in court and I was told that I might be called to trial. I freaked out. Immediately I backed out of everything and told the authorities that I have nothing to do with it and I refuse to go to court. So you're EXTREMELY brave for being able to go to court and deal with this. I hope that one day I'll be able to walk into a court without it being a trigger. You're doing a great job, you're really courageous so please dont be nervous, be proud!

 

[Srain]

I'm feeling calmer, things seem to oddly being going back to it's old "routine" in a brief amount of time, which is odd. I'm grateful as I adore the holidays but making such a sharp turn is a little weird for me. I slept well, walked the dogs, helped with picking (hopefully) vacation dates this next year with my husband and even discussed possibly seeing my Son and his boys. Wow! That would be great! But I'm skeptically hopeful. It's a nice thought though, even if we have to drive the whole way :)

 

[Queen Boudica]

I'm crying again. Been crying all day. I'm crying now because I have been let down again. I'm crying for the friends I thought I had, who were not my friends, for the life I thought I had that was not really a life, for the husband I thought I had who was just a controlling abusive idiot, for the parents I thought I had who were just selfish damaged abusers, for the childhood I never had. And for everything. I could cry for the rest of my life and it still wouldn't be enough.