What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Queen Boudica]

I'm feeling freaked out. Today one of the cleaner guys from the school that my kids go to and that I live opposite to was standing at the top of my driveway, on my driveway, leaning against the fence and smoking, just before the end of school. He had parked his car on the school driveway and then, crossed the road and went to my driveway to smoke.

I had to walk by him and I just ignored him and turned my head as I walked by him. I felt freaked out.

That is really freaking me out now. Thinking about it now, I am getting more and more freaked out.

 

[freakofnurture]

Emptiness, falling, exhaustion, being lost.

 

[SeekingSerenity]

I just want to switch my brain off now.

I want to sleep... I am so, so tired.
Tired is making me horrid.
That makes me feel sad, angry, and I cry.
Hey, Mr Sandman, bring me a dream?

 

[alleycat]

Just realized. Depressed. It's been a while since I've dealt with non-situational that doesn't include some other crap like anxiety.

 

[goingonhope]

Right now I am mad, mad, mad at myself. Isolated, lonely, tired, worn-out and feeling depressed.

 

[SeekingSerenity]

Just seeing another perspective is sometimes all it takes!
You know who you are, thank you, thank you, thank you!

Today I started off feeling down, depressed, demotivated.

I'm feeling better now. I'm still so tired, its such an effort to even be here.
But my heart is feeling better, and now I know its going to be alright.

Bring it on... I can do this! I WILL do this... its 159 today!

 

[Butter-Bee]

Just wants to sleep. I can't handle these nightmares,They ruin me for the whole day. I just want to have a goods night sleep :'(

 

[KP the nut]

I still feel tired.

Today is the second anniversary of my trauma and you know what, it is OK. I am pushing through it.

I feel proud that although my alarm clock went off half an hour late :confused: (and yes it was set right) I managed to be up showered, dressed, ate breakfast, had coffee and was at the office within an hour. Every time I felt myself beginning to disassociate I brought myself back.

 

[intothelight]

Very scared that tomorrow's tests will reveal another type of cancer. Trying to stay upbeat and not panicked. But the fear and anxiety are eating away at me today. I have to make it through the next two days. Mostly I am afraid of my own reaction if the news is bad. Also nervous about relaying to the medical staff on how to "handle me". Don't want to experience another psychotic episode like the last time. I am trying to hang on to being a human and keep some of my dignity.

 

[Loloma]

(((((intothelight)))))

 

[Loloma]

I can't believe it, I'm feeling good today. Woke up relatively pain free, no headache and didn't have to take any Panadol for a change.:)

Rang my sister in Sydney and had a long chat with her. She can't wait till I get back to Australia, isn't that nice.

As I'm feeling so great, I'm sending big (((((hugs))))) to everyone. ;)

 

[AngelaMarie]

(((Deb))) My thoughts will be with you today. I wish you only good news and lots of strength.

I feel tired, but not a lot of pain.
I feel kind of numb emotionally which is okay because I can use the break.
I am feeling a bit better physically but not going to rush the recovery.