Actually, just because of something my sister had said, I just realized I can't believe I've actually made it through the last 5 years. Not the ptsd- not even including that or the SI, or what brought me here, but 5 years of almost constant care (of another), and 2 years of 24-hour care, plus hospitals, while working full time, plus house, dog(s), etc, no holidays taken, getting sick/ injuries, etc.
Kind of wears you out, and also leaves you feeling (or contributes) to having no strength.
Just kind of ~explains (some of it).